Saturday, May 13, 2017

24 Top Bible Verses About Change and Anxiety


Proverbs 4:23 (GNT)

-23 Be careful how you think; your life is shaped by your thoughts.



2 Peter 3:9

- The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.


Deuteronomy 31:6

- Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”



Ecc. 3:1

-There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:
Hebrews 6:19

-We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain,


Isaiah 43:19

-See, I am doing a new thing!
    Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
    and streams in the wasteland.


James 1:17

-Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.


Jeremiah 29:11

-For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.


Joshua 1:9

-Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”


1 Cor. 6:11 (NLV)

- Some of you were like that. But now your sins are washed away. You were set apart for God-like living to do His work. You were made right with God through our Lord Jesus Christ by the Spirit of our God.



Malachi 3:6

-“I the Lord do not change. So you, the descendants of Jacob, are not destroyed.

Friday, May 12, 2017

The Two Cs

           This week I hate them both with a passion. If I could do without, I would. It is funny how the most unimportant things can cause you the most stress and trouble in your life. I have found out that with two things we have became too relying on them, it is sad. If one of those things messes up, then our whole lives are messed up. When I say cards, I mean credit cards. I hate dealing with these two things by myself. It brings out the worst in me and I hate that. I have dealt with that all this week. My credit cards for working and a flat tire on my car and to top it off my friend got engaged. Don't get me wrong I am really happy for her and I am not comparing anything. It is just something that happened this week that was new and shocking. Just threw me off a bit.
            I have been dealing with this credit card company for two days now. They have me on my parent's account and one of my own. I should only have my own account. It took us a couple of hours on Weds. To where we thought we had it to where we wanted it but that was wrong. I tried paying for my car and some other things with them and they both were declined. Now I have to deal with them by myself today after work. It won't be pretty. I am not looking forwards to it. Then I got done with work yesterday to find my car having a flat tire. I had two of my co workers still there so they helped me. We found a jantior at the school and he changed it for me. 
           I went to Wal Mart to have it changed and my two co workers followed me there just to make sure I would make it. It was a two hour wait so I hung out at Wal Mart last night. I went shopping some and then just sat for a bit in the car area and ate some snacks. My car got done around 8:45 so that is when I got to drive home. I got home at around 9:20ish but I didn't get to bed until about 10:00. I still had to eat supper when I got home so I cooked some pizza rolls and ate them. It was a really strange night for me. If that wasn't enough for my week something had to happen today to finish my week off just perfectly. Why mess up a pattern when it has happened all week right? This one doesn't start with a "C" but I thought I would add it in this entry just so I would remember this week.
           The fire alarms went off twice while we were at school with some of the children still left. It went off at around 5:15 and then another maybe 5 mins after the first one. We had to run outside two times and gathered the things to take with us two things. The children did a great job waiting on the grass. They were a little rowdy but not as bad as they could be with more of the children. The first time the alarm went off we had about 10 children and then we got down to 5 and then they were all gone by 6:00. I was really anxious by the time I got home tonight. I had to have some chocolate to keep me sane.
           I don't know what the point of this entry was or if it is meant to make a point. All I know is that I want to remember this week because the word "Hope" kept going through my mind, whether it was a quite hope and a hope I had to say out loud to get me through one of these problems. I want to look back on this week and remember what ever it was that I learned from all of this. I know I had to learn something because it was all very confusing and strange that it happened in the same week. I know that I also learned to look for the little blessings in the big bad things or at least I was reminded of that again. Those two things might be all I learned but I wanted to write it out just to make sure in the future. 

Thursday, May 11, 2017

Do Children Have Compassion Anymore?

         Some days after coming home from work I ask myself, "Do children really have compassion anymore?" Do they even know what that word means? I was lucky enough to hit on it when they were hitting on it during the school hours too. "Compassion" is the word of the month for May. They were excited that we were going to talk about it too.
           It was sad that I had to go over what it meant though. We had to miss computer time because we needed to talk about it. My 2nd graders are so mean for 2nd graders. They will make fun of others because they are different, they will call each other name, and they won't go to with someone if they don't have to. It is so bad. I have even had one child say that she isn't friends with another child so why does she need to be nice to her. They also have a really bad time listening to adults. They don't even show compassion to the adults. It is really sad. It was so bad yesterday that we didn't go to computers, we set in the gym and read about compassion. We also watched YouTube videos on compassion and bullying. We talked about the opposites so they would hopefully understand each of them. We watched two of each and then talked about each o them.
             The first one we watched was about Compassion. It was where the characters were bears and they were learning what compassion really was. It was a cartoon about those children bears helping an old lady that was grumpy all the time and very lonely. They found out it was her birthday soon so they threw her a surprise birthday party. It really made her happy in the end. The bears did something that the old lady needed to make her feel special and happy. The 2nd video we watched was also a little about compassion. It was actually called" A Kind Heart" but after we got done watching it, we take about what kind of compassionate things were in that video. A bear that usually wins all the medals from races went was almost to the finish line on this one race. Then, he decided to go help another friend that couldn't get pass the relay wall. Right there is where the children said there was compassion showing. One bear helped another bear when he was in need. Then at the end of the movie all 5 friends won the race together.
              That was the last compassion video. Next, we watched two more videos about bullying because believe it or not, I have some kids in my group but does those things but have no idea what it is called. The 3rd video that we watched was about bullying. It was prefect for my group because it was about a mean girl in the 2nd grade. It was about about a girl that was being really mean to this new little boy in school. She called him a little shrimp and didn't help him do anything. She left him alone when it was time for lunch and she wouldn't play with him while they were outside. She even punched him in the tummy while they were outside. It also show that the people that were that girls friends at the start of the movie, they weren't her friends by the end of the movie unless she would say sorry to the little boy and she did. They were all friends by the end of the movie.
             The 4th video we watched a bear who was scared of going to school because of the bullies around him. It showed the children that when you bully someone it makes them scared to go to school and will make them look down on themselves. This bear had a talk with his mom and his mom got him to feel better about himself and he went to school. He was going to be the one that looked the bully in the eyes and be confident in who he was and maybe try to even help the bully. His mom gave him some ideas on how to be a friend to that bully and why he needs to be even when he doesn't want to. He tried being that bully's friend and it worked at the end of the video. Between each video, we talked about each of the movies, what the videos said and taught us, asked them to give some examples of what it could look like in their world and school, and so on. 
             All of the group was paying really good attention to the videos and they were responding really well with the questions I was asking. They were even laughing at the videos. I think it was fun for them but yet they, hopefully, learned something about the two things and what they really meant. Well, I thought that was the case or would be the case until one of my children called another child "  a bully". This child has no thinking process when it comes to what is coming out of her mouth. I would say that the other girl was a little mean to her but one she was not the only one mean to this girl and how can a child say that to a classmate, just straight out like it was no big deal. For some reason, it just shocked me. It did make the girl that was called the bully cry and hopefully she took it the right way. Hopefully, she will think about her actions and she will talk to her parents about what happened and they were try to talk to her to help her be nice. 
             Other then that, I was useless or that is how I felt. It opened my eyes that even in the public school with "normal" children, there are big problems, they are just different. The problems could be little so that is why we have to keep our eyes open as teachers and caregivers if we are working at the schools. Parents need to keep their eyes open too. As an adult in charge of little ones, we need to take the time to teach the important life lessons to children instead of just all of the subjects. That is the problem of the world today. They don't get taught compassion, love, kindness, respect, responsibility and other things along those lines at home or school so we are raising up selfish and all about me adults. How can people not see that and think everything is okay? I saw the "problem" yesterday. Now I need to do something about it but what?

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

The Power of the Word "No"

         When I say the power of the word "no", I am not meaning between parent and child in this case. I am not even meaning just from the child. I am meaning between a friend and a so called friend. I am also meaning the act of not responding when you really should. I have been through both in my life and that's the reason it is the way it is to this day. I really believe that it is what started my axienty. Here is why I believe it has had a big impact on my life.
            No one really understands my life when it comes to boys/guys. I feel like I was cursed back in the third grade because of something I didn't do but should have. I was thinking and mapping it all out last night and it makes sense. Now I just have to learn how to rekindle everything so I have at least a chance in my lifetime. I was one of those girls that always blamed the guy until last night. I was the one that messed up way back then and it has followed me around ever since.
            Here is what happened back then and I regret it really, really, really bad. I would like to go back to see what would have happened if I did it "right" but I don't regret how things turned out. It was just hard and had been hard since then. I took the harder path, I think. Like I said before, it all started back in third grade. I moved to a new town and school the summer before I started that grade. I was so nevous when I started that I didn't know what to think. Look back now, I wasn't thinking straight.
             Not only was I nevous because I was in a new school, but 2 weeks after being there, a boy in my class wrote me a note asking me to be his girlfriend. It was very George Strait's "Check Yes or No" ish moment. Funny that I am describing it that way now. I remembered that I was so happy that someone gave me a note that I went home and showed my mom or that is how I tell it. I don't remember exactly what happened after I opened it and read it but I know I showed my mom somehow because I remember her saying something to me. I remember saying, "you can't date right now so write him back and tell him no and that reason. You know what I did next. Nothing. I totally advoided it and him I felt like. Since that moment in third grade, I've never been the same and either has my life. By not writing him or saying anything back, I chose the hard path for my life and continue to chose it for some reason. 
               I always, through the years, kept thinking why is he teasing me non stop? Why won't he just stop that? Thinking and looking back now, I never gave him the chance to stop it. I was the one that made him look like a fool that day and he could have felt weak too. I don't want to put a story in his life that wasn't there but there has to be a reason for the teasing all my life and me not answering something that meant so much to him back then totally makes sense. I will out this in this blog, last night i stayed up and wrote a fake letter that I wouldn't mind sending to him at all but not going to because that has pass. He was just paying me back for that time and all the time after that. Recently, I had a situation in my life that I was the person that got the "no" and it didn't feel good at all especially when the other person wrote it. 
                   Made me think how bad it must of felt to be totally not there to a person like my third grade friend must of felt. Granted he was one of the poplar boys anyways but still. It is also because of this situation way back then that I think my anxiety gets the best of me around guys. I really think that is when that all started. Since then I have either said "no" or not had a guy that like me like that. Well, I find one that I like like that and he tells me "no" right away. The guy now is just giving me what I gave the boy back in thirds grade. I was just getting back what I threw out back then. That boy was the writer and I was the responser and chose to response with nothing. Now I am the writer and another guy is the responder and he wrote "no" and of course it is or was the guy I really care(ed) about at this moment in my life. 
                     It came back to bite me. That's for sure. You try to get over something that happened years ago and then the person just shuts you down once again like there were no feelings there. I know I have a chance of both of them reading this if they really wanted to take the time to look, which they don't because to them both I am just a nobody right now. Just a girl that passed them by in high school and in college. Just a supporter but nothing more. I don't know anyone that can understand my "guy" problems but I have never even been on a date in my life and I think I messed it up for me way back in 3rd grade because when a group of boys teases you all through high school, for that one thing among other things I am sure, you have to get a personality change and it isn't pleasant for any other guy. You have to be the strong, stubborn, sassy, determined (good) women along with all the worry and doubt in the world when you put up with boys like that so you don't do anything to yourself. 
                    Sometimes it will follow you for your life and think that you have to take that into a friendship and be the first to say something or anything and that doesn't even work for you. You think you have to be the one that helps get over the bumps and holes in the roads but that is so wrong. You think that God needs your help in putting you and someone else together but He does't because He is bigger then you and He knows better. When that doesn't you just give up on your dream. You think you have to take it to the next level whatever that may be but you don't have to. In other words, you take the lead when really it is the Godly man's job to do that in any relationships. Yes, this all came to be last night and I even have a little diagram written out in my notebook to help me remember and just to make sure I got everything right. 
                     Thinking all of this all of your life, no wonder that you might have problems and holes in your heart that you have kept from the Lord. You might have kept your whole life away because you just thought you could handle everything on your own. When it comes down to everything, you can do anything on your own, God is your everything and you need to be very dependent on Him to get things down in your life. 

Monday, May 8, 2017

Give Me......Forgive Me......Lead Me


-The Lord's Prayer


-"Give us, Forgive us, Lead us."

-Matthew 6:9-14


-God's concerns 1st in prayer = His Kingdom

-Then our concerns.

-That is the order of The Lord's Prayer and should be the order of our every prayers.


-Matthew 6:11
         -Pray for your daily needs.
         - 1 Peter 5:7
         -  Phil. 4:6
                  -Bring it all to God.


-James 4:2

-Ex. 16 shows us what daily dependance on God looks likes.

-"We don't want to live on moldy bread." 

-Confession of sins
          -Matthew 6:12,14
          -Matthew 6:33-35


-"When we hold on and not forgive, we don't understand full grace." 
              -Steve Hicks


-Temptation
          -Matthew 6:13
          - James 1:13
          - James 1:2
       
          -"Give me the strength to face temptation."


-The Lord's Prayer is a template for us.

-the daily bread = the daily list/petition

-The order of The Lord's Prayer
         
             -1st- His Praise
             -2nd- Our List
             -3rd- Our sins and temptations and forgiveness


-"Pray just for today, don't worry about the future."


-"Seek fresh manna daily."

Saturday, May 6, 2017

More Verses I Like

Colossians 1:9-14New International Version (NIV)

For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you. We continually ask God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all the wisdom and understanding that the Spirit gives,[a] 10 so that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God,11 being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, 12 and giving joyful thanks to the Father, who has qualified you[b]to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light. 13 For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, 14 in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.
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Colossians 1:17-18New International Version (NIV)

17 He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. 18 And he is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the supremacy.
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Col. 2:7

Spiritual Fullness in Christ
So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, rootedand built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.
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Ephesians 1:15-19New International Version (NIV)

Thanksgiving and Prayer



15 For this reason, ever since I heard about your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all God’s people, 16 I have not stopped giving thanks for you, remembering you in my prayers. 17 I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit[a] of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. 18 I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has calledyou, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, 19 and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength.
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1 Thessalonians 5:16-18New International Version (NIV)

16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
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1 Thessalonians 3:12New International Version (NIV)

12 May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else, just as ours does for you.
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1 Thessalonians 5:23-24New International Version (NIV)

23 May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. 24 The one who calls you is faithful, and he will do it.

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Taking Care of a "Real" ADHD Child

         April is over and for me that is a good thing. It seems like this April was a hard one for me for some reason and there is one reason I know of. I got a little boy with high functioning autism and ADHD. Let me tell you it was a challenge getting to know his strength and weaknesses but now he is easy to get along with. I really think it was all the changes that was going on around him because his mom was. Stay at home mom up til now.
          I had to watch him carefully the first few weeks just to understand him and see what tiggred him and how he worked, for lack of a better word. I even took my eye off of him for a second during his second week here and that is when he broke a window on a school door by throwing a rock at it. Mind you, he saw other kids throwing rocks but not at the door. There is a lot of little things that I've been seeing from him that I knew would happened so I was ready.  I can see now when he gets very movey when he gets bored and he gets bored really quickly. I will usually let him play with something or while we are waiting for the time to get done, he can usually go over to centers to keep busy and his mind off other things. I see that if he asks when are we going somewhere, I need to give him a dinfant answer like the exact time we are going. I just can't shove it off and say in a little bit or he will keep asking.
            He also asks what we are going to be doing next a lot so I have learned to have patience with that. I also have noticed that he likes details so the more I can give him the more he will feel comfortable for the day. If we changed the slightest from the normal routine, he will ask why and need a real reason. He can tell time really good and remember things for a long time. I have also noticed that, at times, he has a hard time sitting down to eat but when I remind him nicely to do it he will. When he is in trouble, he knows it. He won't say anything when you asked him if you did it but he will have a shameful look on his face and look like he is about ready to cry. He will say sorry over and over like that will fix everything. He is always the first kid I get for the day and he is happy about that. He did rub my back a few times at the start of April but his mom said that was a neverous tick like thing. Now I get hugs like nothing else from him everyday. It is like 2 to 3 hugs per day now. That is the part I like about those "type", using it loosely, kids.
          I have also noticed how he plays and talks with the other kids. He will either play with them if they will include him or not play with them if they don't. I even noticed one day where he was playing parallel to a group of two girls. He was looking in the little rocks like the girls were. He will also just take away the things that he wants that other children have. That is mainly the way he gets the toys from the other children. When I see that though, I go over and remind him that it isn't nice to take away from our friends and that we need to ask them if we can play or have more of that toy. It makes the other children really mad because they don't understand why he does it. They just think he does it to be mean but not is not the case.
          He would also throw things. Not far and not in a bad way but just like across the floor or to knock another toy down but again I showed him and told him how we should play with the toys and it has been a lot better. In a month, I have learned a lot about this little boy and again I wouldn't trade him for the world. I am really hoping I get him this summer, even though I might regret having him all day some days but that is just another challenge that I will have to get through. If you know me, I love challenges like that. I do have a sign for everyday of the week and the different routines that we have because they do change back and forth everyday like an activity or two. When he started coming, that really helped him to know what we were doing next and that helped me keep my patience with him so I wouldn't here him ask every time we were getting ready to go somewhere different. It helped a lot of my children in the group, though, so I guess all of them are visual learners.
             I want to keep this boy with me all the time now and who knows I might only have a month or 3 more months with him. I hope not but with this job you could be moved to any different school. It is to that spot where I just don't want to let him go. It is to where he will hug me now 2 or 3 times a week if not per day. It is where I totally understand him and stop things right when he is ready to stop them. It is funny because art is not a big thing for him but if I tell him the way to do it and how many he has to do if there is something with a certain number like to glue on, he will do how many I tell him and then stop. He also isn't a big fan of paint but if we are doing a project with a little paint, he will do it if we will help him. We have to be standing right over him to make sure he will do some of the project sometimes.
          One more thing I learned is that he will not cut or can't cut, haven't decided yet, curvy lines. He will go ahead and cut straight lines with out complaining but if there are any curves in the lines, he will not cut it. I have been keeping notes on all of these things and other things so I can see how he works and remember what he likes to do and not do. I want down the actions he does and then try to figure out what to do differently. Like I said, it is a challenge and I like it. I like it because you learn something new everyday with him whether you knew it or not the day before. Children like him are special and different in every way. Not one of them are the same so there is always a chance for learning something new. I don't think I ever had a child with two "disabilities" so that is new for me too or that I knew of for sure. There was always the shelter where the child could of had more then one "disability" but they were never tested or barely tested when we had them.
       

           All this to say: "Never judge a book by its cover." (aka Never judge a person by how they look or act the first few times you meet them.")

Christmas Eve Sermon

Brett Furgason John 3:16-Main verse -God initiates because He loves us. -God loves us even when we are broken and sinful. -Gave His One of a...