Psalm 4-5- A Prayer

This is a prayer for this day and time. I just picked out a few lines from these two chapters that popped out at me and that I really needed right now. Hope it helps you too! 

Dear Daddy,

Give me relief from my distress.

Search my heart and let me be silent.

I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly.

Trust in the Lord.

I run for cover to You.

You welcome us with open arms.

We dwell in safety because

You surround us with a shield.

You will bless the righteous. 

In Your name,

Amen

In God's Eyes You Are Irreplaceable- A Poem

In God's Eyes You Are Irreplaceable.

You are irreplaceable because He made only

One of you. 

You are beautiful, gentle, talented, and kind hearted. 

No one can ever replace you even if they try.

You are one in a million in God's eyes. 

In God's eyes you are irreplaceable.

You are beautiful. 

You have the color of your eyes for a reason.

Your hair is that color for a reason.

God made your skin that color because He needed it that color. 

God needed to use you like that. He has a speical plan for you.

In God's eyes you are irreplaceable.

You are gentle.

You don't fight back but turn your back.

You try to encourage even when they don't

Hear you.

You don't yell but use a soft voice because

That gets their attention for you.

God is that gentle and He wants you to be

Like Him.

In God's eyes you are irreplaceable.

You are very talented.

God has given a special and unique talent

For a reason.

You are at that place and job for a reason.

God knew you could handle certain things

And not handle other things.

So wherever you are be a missionary of

God. 

Let people see God through you.

In God's eyes you are irreplaceable.

You are kind hearted.

You give a lot even when you want to

Give up.

You think about other people instead

Of yourself.

You never slow down.

You have a heart for God. Never forget that!

In God's eyes you are irreplaceable.

No one can ever replace you.

He only made one of you so that makes

You really speical.

Live like it! Live for God!

Written By: Tiffney Wilson

Written On: March 18th, 2020

Psalm 1-3 (What Do We Do For God?)

During this time of our lives, it might be crazy. You might be out of work or working from home. Your kids might be out of school and having to do it at home online. You maybe working at work but without people or children. Whatever your case may be, here are some things God reminds us to do:

-Chew on Scripture day and night.

-Bear fruit every month because we are trees.

-Always be in blossom (aka always keep growing in the Word.)

-Worship God in an adoring embrace.

-Run towards God, not away from Him.

-Celebrate the good times and small things in awe.

-Rest so we can stand tall and steady in these hard times.

While we are doing these things, what is God doing for us?

-Watches over the way of the righteous.

-Shields us on all sides.

-Ground our feet.

-Lift our heads high so we can see Him in everything.

These are just the first two chapters of Psalm. I am trying to read a chapter a day to keep me sane. Anyone want to join me?

Bloom to Plan for 2020

       I have a word and a phase that I am going to work on growing in this next year in 2020. The word is: Bloom. The phase is: Bloom to Plan. After I explain my phase, you will understand why I picked it. 

        The word "Bloom" is a good word for me because there are some areas where I need to Bloom in and make those areas stronger. The area of planning is one area I really need to Bloom in. That is where the phase of the year comes in and makes sense. People might say that I have already bloomed a Lot this past year but I know I could Bloom more after learning a lot this year. Being a girlfriend for a year, taught me a lot and opened up my eyes a lot more. 

            I have 5 main steps and things that I learned but that is another entery for another time. Those 5 things are what I need to Bloom in and right now one of those 5 things are "planning better". Bloom to Plan. This past year showed me how much I need to plan and how I need to plan for everything. When you have yourself and another person, planning is the best way to go for everything. 

             It could make things easier in life. Plan for everything and every holiday. I never had to plan for myself because I could go off the wind and I made enough money for just me. Now, I have another person to think about. We have talked about starting to save for Christmas 2020 and I've thought about saving up for his birthday too. I've also thought to plan where I could make more crafts this year. I've tried to plan for myself and make a budget but it has failed Everytime. I have a lot that I want to do and plan for so that is why I have to make it a point to focus on that part of my life.

             Now that I have another person in my life maybe that plan to budget is a good idea this year. Maybe my planning habit will Bloom too? That's my hope this year. That is why my year phase is: Bloom to Plan and why my word this year is : Plan. Plus hopefully I can use that planning to do something big in the future. 

             Hopefully, planning things out will take down my anxiety too. That's another good thing it could do. Planning is my number one goal of 2020. Let's see if I can do it! 

             

             

Do I Need to Be Strong?

Strong is a word that is used to

Describe man, cars, buildings, and

Metal. But what about women?

It is a feeling you don't know you

Are feeling til you've had enough. 

It's when you break down crying.

You might know why or you might

Not but you know you can't stop from

Crying. 

Strong is also when you have to do 

Everything by yourself. You have to

Contorl the children. You have to

Teach them everything under the sun. 

It's when you have people telling you how to

Treat or raise a child but you do it

Your own way anyways. Strong is being a wife,

Mother, daughter, and a women of any

Kind. 

Strong is when you have tried everything

But nothing works. Strong is something 

You learn, but have no idea when or how

Or why you learned it. Maybe it was because

You got made fun of in high school, lived

By yourself for a long time, deaths in your life time, or had really Hard jobs. It could be a

Number of things. It could also be the way 

You were raised or because you had to out 

On that front for so long in your life. You

Thought that was who you needed to 

Be. 

Strong can also be a bad thing. It could make

You turn away from people. It could also 

Make you give up because people are using your

Strongness. It could be because you believe in 

Yourself and only you. The list could go on. 

Strong will be a part of you no matter what.

You will have to break some of it to let

People in. It doesn't like change at all because

It has to go away. Change makes being strong 

A little more sensitive for awhile. But it always shows back up again. 

Strong makes you feel anxious. It makes you

Worried and scared. Strong makes you think

You are so prefect that you could never 

Mess up. When you do, you have to be strong

And push through it in a way that makes you

Feel better. Strong is when you want to worry

And care for someone or something so bad

You don't let them see what you are really 

Feeling. 

Strong is what you thinks will keep you safe.

It does when you wear a mask on the outside

But on the inside it destroys you. You are letting all these feelings build up that eventually you

Will burst out crying or doing something else

You'll regret. You will say words you never meant to say. You say them because you think you

Can handle the actions towards you but you

Can't. 

Strong is a good feeling to have for the most 

Part. Sometimes, though, you have to be 

Careful with it. It could be all over the place. Here, there, and everywhete. It could make you question who You really are. That's what is really hard about feeling strong. 

Written By: Tiffney Wilson

Written On: November 2019

The 3 Cs- Chance, Challenge, and Change

          I was in a thinking and writing mood last night. Ever get those  moments where you just think of something good to write about. It is like a light bulb came on. I was just thinking about any kind of relationship. A love relationship would be a good one to apply these to though. Just throwing that out there. No matter the kind, there are three Cs that you have to do yourself as a individual. Those three Cs are: Chance, Challenges, and Change.
          You take the chance. You take the chance of changing your life forever. You go right into whatever you have doubts about and scares you. You have questions but you take that chance anyways. Sometime when you take that chance. It will turn out to be the best thing you ever think of. You take that chance of giving up things to get another thing. You get the chance of someone's asking you all of these questions not knowing they will matter soon but yet those questions for you thinking and prepared for what was ahead. You take the chance in answering those questiins, hoping that you will do what you said you would when that chance comes. with those chances, you will have challenges.
            You have the challenges. All kind of them. Some challenges you might understand right away and others you might not til later. The challenges could be easy or hard. They could be a fight that you have to work through or with me, my anxiety that I have to contorl. They could also be good like understanding why a person treats you the way they do or going onto the next step. The challenges could even be something like learning something about you or someone else or something else. I love challenges because you do keep learning and I love that because I am a teacher's kid. Those challenges might seem scary at first but everyone needs them or you would stay where you are in life forever.
              You are changed. By taking that chance and going pass those challenges, you are becoming a changed person. I thought I was changed and done changing when I took a speical chance but come to figure out I wasn't even close to done. I might have been done changing if I was to stay by myself forever but that's not God's plan. Never was. I'm being changed everyday now. I'm learning new things and going through a lot of new challenges. I am seeing how storng I can really be, I guess. One thing I have learned so far is no one can change you for the better then the person who truly loves you and that you love back.
                Call me crazy but I think the 3 Cs are a way of life. Chance, challenge and change. How else would you describe life? How else would you describe the feeling of love? How else would you describe a person changing better for a reason? You got to take that chance. With that chance, comes a lot of challenges. With those challenges, you have to change or you might not make it through some of them. If you never do these things, how will you know what to do to get through life?

Summary:

Step 1: Take the chance.
Step 2: Get through those challenges.
Step 3: Change because you took the chance and got through those challenges.

Hurting Knee is a Blessing

            Sorry I haven't wrote on here for awhile. I have drafts but not entries. I finally have the time to write a little something and to catch you all up on what has been going on in my life. I wish I could catch you up on all of it but a lot has been going on too much to share but I will catch you up on the last month/few weeks of it because it is strange how things are happening. I wanted to think of a better title then I did but nothing else is coming to me right now and that's ok. I just hope people will read this anyways because it is about how God is working in my life right now.
              Everything started to roll perfectly about mid April. I was taking a break from things, people were getting sick, and so on. It is strange because for me, as a teacher's kid, I always knew May to be the busiest month of the year and it still is but I guess you could say that I feel at peace this May. I could turn everything that has happened to me or in my life about me and my anxiety. I could blame myself like I use to in the past. I can dwell on it too. I am realizing that I don't and it is making all the difference. It also helps when you have someone that cares about you and cares enough to listen to you complain at times. It is a easier way of getting things out instead of keeping them bottled up inside you.
                 It all started with me taking a big step back from teaching Sunday School at my church but it seems like God knew that I didn't need that on my plate right now in May. I am seeing Him at work because I stepped back and let someone else take over. Last two Sundays I have felt at peace about it. I have got to spend more time with my boyfriend whether going to Sunday School with him or spending more time with just him during church and not feeling so stressed out during it. If that wasn't enough, to get me to slow down some, I had to go fall on my knee. Let's not for get my cat and his nails. I had to take care of my cat and that is taking a lot of my time but it is fun. Learning as I go with that. He is just like my own child.
                 My knee falling couldn't happened at a better time because I have things to get ready for like birthdays and graduations. Although it hurts really bad, it is a blessing in disguise. My dad is having a couple of drs. appointments that are really serious to me at least. Anything with my parents is scary. With family moving out of state, I get time to be with them and not feel so stressed out. As you can see, I have a lot on my plate right now and I guess the knee falling is just a blessing because of it. I wouldn't have the day off to type this and get some other things done. It happened right before Mother's Day to where I had to rest and then before the 2 graduations that I am going to. I think I was just getting so stressed that I was trying to hurry and slipped on water but when you have so much on your mind it is hard not to think about other things.
                It slows me down in the time where things get so busy or can be so busy. It slows me down to make me take time to enjoy the small things like the birthdays that I can decorate and wrap gifts for. Realizing how people are feeling during a certain time of year. I have just seen in this past few weeks that every little thing is a blessing and God knows what He is doing. He is making one thing happen so I can take time and see the other thing, good or bad. Sad that it has to come down to a really bruised up knee but God does what He has to to get our attention and to see that we are not irreplaceable but are needed in other areas of life right now at this moment. I swear if I haven't fallen on my knee there were be some gifts not given over the weekend because I would have never thought about it if I was busy.
                 I should say that in grown toenails on a kitty cat is a blessing too because this is really when all of these things started happening. I will say that I would rather have that or a hunting knee to get my attention then some of the other ways God has got me to wake up and got my attention in the past. I'm glad I can see the little, small things God is using now instead of Him having to use the big things right now. Has God ever tried to get your attention using little things like these but you couldn't see Him til He used something big? Have you had both happen to you like I have? If so, which one would you rather God used more of in your life.
                My answer would be: I would rather have more hurt knees then anything else for Him to get my attention. I would rather see God after a hurt knee then after a big and bad life change. God does know the prefect timing and order of our life. He knows what needs to happen when and that's why we should trust Him always with everything. Here is a picture for me to remember this life lesson: