I feel that God planned it as perfect timing because he knew I was getting so tired of everything and that I have had a really busy past couple of years with my dad passing and planning for the wedding. I think God Neil I wanted to give up but he also knew that I couldn't On My Own Strength so the next best thing was to make me weak and sick. I have gone back thinking to the time before my dad passed away and all that consisted of and what I was going to with my job back then.
It is kind of funny now because it feels like now we all get to new people at my job and I'm resting so it's just like I can get on board with a whole new way at work after all that had happened before. Starting back 2 years ago I didn't even know if I was going to stay or be able to stay because of covid and just how things were. I didn't have an assistant teacher so I did another job for a while then after that job within the job I have now they found me an assistant so that was something new I had to do it on top of dealing with my Dad's passing. So I had two major things right there.
Then if that was it enough or directors kept changing non-stop. I became the second in charge somewhere in between that changing of those so that I felt like was more on my plate with everything already happening in my life. Then if those three things weren't enough I had all new kids starting so I had to get to know the parents and the kids' routines and so on. Then the next thing that I know it was time for the wedding planning and everything that consisted with that.
I had to move within 24 hours. I had to plan the wedding. I had to what about making special appointments for my dress, my hair, my makeup, and other things like that. I also had to travel for those appointments what's made it a little bit harder. It might be it might sound like I am complaining but I'm not I wouldn't regret anything that I have done in these past 2 years because I know they have helped me become the stronger person I am right now. I'm just glad God saw that I needed help with resting and he gave me that time before it was too late. Just looking back like my title says I just can't remember when I actually had sick days in the past 2 years so these three days I have taken really felt good for myself care and much needed. These past few days have shown me that if you won't take care of yourself God will find a way to help you help yourself. Might not be the best way but if it gets you to rest it might be the best way in His eyes. That is what I will be thinking from now on.
