This Little Girl's Eyes

As I was looking in this little girl's eyes today I couldn't help but notice something about her. She is so sweet and smart but yet has so many problems and it isn't her fault. I want to help her and I would if I could but I can't. All she needs is that one on one and to let someone know she cares about her so much that they would cry in front of her. I started to because I knew how she could be and she really disappointed me. I had a good day with her one on one. She painted my toenails and she painted her own fingernails. It is strange because moments I see why a person would give up a child like her but then again if you just know what you are doing I see nothing wrong. It was strange and funny because I had to almost cry in front of her to make her see I really did care for her. I really did enjoy spending time with her. I had to keep repeating I cared for her, ask her what's wrong, tell her to talk to me, that I wasn't mad at her I just wanted to know what was wrong, and just to talk. It was like I was looking into a child's eyes that needed so much help but I couldn't really help her and it hurts me. It hurt me two ways. Not only did it hurt me emaitonally to where I almost cried but she was also hitting and pinching me but I just pushed through because sometimes children need that if it is bad enough. They don't need time outs or other displine like that, they need to know that someone won't give up on them and that they care about them no matter what they do to the grown up. The grown up will not walk away. They've had too many people walk away on them. I also told her that she was my princess for now and that she looked pretty because she didn't like her curly hair. She asked me if she was a princess and at first I said you are my little princess but then I changed it you are my princess for now. I just don't get it. It is hard sometimes and sad how bad children these days are. They will hit and pinch and try not to get attention when really all they need is that. They will also do that if they can't find the words that they want to say, don't know the words to say, or too shy to say them. After this girl saw me start to cry, she asked if she could have some purple lotion. That simple but yet so hard for a girl that has had a hard life. I can't give it to them at my job but I wish I could and I wish I could all day every day of my life like let their be a job like that. I have come up with a new thearpy though and it is called "Fingernail Polish" thearpy. Just sayin'. It could help some little girls. It helped this one today. There is more to this little girl and it shows in her eyes but then again with children I work with there is more to them but we just don't take the time to see it in each one sadly enough when that is our job. There is a little princess that wants to come out but can't because she is struggling with what she knows and is learning now. It amazes me the more i think about it because isn't that how we treat God and how we treated Jesus. We beat up on Him if were not happy if we have no idea what is next in our lives. I won't go on into any more details about her or what was going on in my life at that time but it is just a pysical picture of how we treat God often and we don't even know it most of the time. It was like God showing me, "Ok, you had patience with this little girl, now have patience with me and your future." Maybe God gave me more of a emational side and made me go through a period of not using my words but yet get mad first instead and then use them for a reason. :)