My Heart Clings On

         I'm outside writing at a park on this beautiful May day. It is chilly but the sun is shining and the birds are tweeting but yet my heart is clinging onto something.
         My heart is clinging to dream or a desire that I have and want it to come true. I know it's clinging because I've been looking up Bible verses for it, looking for activities to do,  looking at ways to disapline, looking at places to do it, and I'm in a spot right now sort of where I'm in charge or helping another person to be in charge.
           My heart is clinging to wanting to be a single house mom with just girls in the house. The girls would be preschool age (4) to elementary aged (maybe 10). Iffy on that still because I can handle the preschool things but don't know about the elementary school things. I know of a place in my own backyard that building 5 more houses to use as children's homes in the same area out in the country.
            Just think I can be Kate Davis (book Kisses from Katie) in my own backyard here in AR. I can be a mom to a lot of little girls who don't have one. Not only, that it could help me go towards my biggest dream of making my own children's home wherever God leads. It is strange how God can lead because the founder of this place went to my college for a few months.
            I know there will be some things I have to give up like time with friends and family. I would have to take them everywhere with me church and so on which is fine. I would get one weekend though and one day a week to hang with friends. Another great thing is it is faith based so I can be touching girls' lives both ways.
          I've always wanted to be a part of a children's home or orphanage and here is my chance here in the states even. I have 5 chances to decide. What an amazing way to finish off my 20s! That is what my heart is clinging onto right now.