Restoring a Friendship

      I lied in my last entry about that one being my last one before vacation. It would have been but then I thought about something else on my way home this afternoon and showed me how God can work and in what strange ways He can work. I hope it makes since because I want the lesson to come across perfectly but not the whole story of what happened. If you know what I mean? Hopefully, I don't have an entry with this title yet. Maybe someday I will look back and make sure I don't?
      Earlier this month, a friend and me didn't really understand where each other was coming from and didn't really know how to tell each other what the problem was. I would call it a small disagreement but I don't want to call it anything for the sake of being wrong. I was doing something that was bothering this friend for a long time and the friend had enough of it and tried to tell me in a nice way, which is great if I could read nice words or hints but with me that doesn't quite work well. I would rather be told straight out face to face or in a letter if not in person. I still want it to be nice but I want it to get to the point if you know what I mean.
       The friend tried to nicely tell me what the problem was but I couldn't see it. I'm just that too trusting of a person, I guess. I told my friend to tell me straight out and the friend did. Took me a few days to calm down but I did and it was faster then normal which was new for me. For all that it counts, I could also be really stubborn at times and I need that straight forwardness to break me out of that stubbornness. I went, about, a month before something happened with it. I stopped what my friend told me to stop because I could see how it was bothersome. Then something happened that next month to where I think it kind of helped restore and/or grow the friendship.
         I won't say everything because it might give what I'm talking about away but there was a moment where I felt God's forgiveness or at least an example of it that He gave me on the cross. It was a moment where I felt like I really gave forgiveness and where I really wanted to because I care about that friend so much. It was when we had that one thing in common, which is that we believe in God and that He died on the cross for our sins. If God can forgive me for the problems I have been to Him and however mean I've been to Him. Then why can't I forgive this friend for telling me what the friend wanted to because I will agree I should have seen what I did wrong. It was right in front of me but I was too stubborn to stop. My friend was just calling it out to me and in a way keeping me accountable without even knowing it or that is what I like to think. I was just hoping something would change if I kept going but how can it if I don't let up or let go of it for God to control.
         What people we talking about around us was such a strange topic us to be around because I know it was what I needed for sure. My friend, not so sure. I would guess so but I won't assume. We have known each other all these years and seen each other throughout those years but yet there was this one night where everything just had to come together out of all those other nights. It seemed like it was one thing after the other. Now though, it seems like there is a break but I hope not. I pray and hope that God is just working behind the miracle and something else will come out of it. I'm thinking about this and what happened a month ago right now. I'm boiling it down to this. It is just a simple thing that came to mind of a drive home.
         You can call it restoring a friendship but I don't know if it was really ever broken but if anything it was deepen a lot more. At least for me, it was. The other thing that I might call it is God giving me a second chance but if that is what I'm going to call it the God needs to give me a lot of 2nd chances so that is why I think "deepening" or "restoring" are better words for this situation.