Medicine is Not the Source

            "We use signs of life to measure health." 

"Jesus Christ is the Source of Life and not just any life but enteral life."


            This was last Saturday night's sermon but I thought it really fit me. I needed to hear it over and over. Even though I am not on anxiety meds. anymore because I had this feeling that things weren't going my way and that I was to dependent on them, this message really hit home for me. It is crazy how the people of today think. They think that meds., diets, oils, and other things is all they need to get and stay healthy. While that might be true for our bodies, let's not get the two confused. I think I got the two confused. Yes, my body needs to be taken care of but not the way I thought it did. I was anxious and worried because my spiritual life wasn't with God's plans.
           During the last months before I stopped the meds. on my own, I was not myself at all and to be honest if you asked me what happened before July of this year of this year, I couldn't tell you. I blame the meds. for that. I think they messed me up more then helped me or the kind I was taking at least and I stopped completely because I was going through so many kinds in what seemed like every 6 months. It is true we do use a lot of signs for our body's health. whether it is blood pressure, weight, feelings, and so on. Don't get me wrong I know God made our bodies to tell us when things are wrong but my thing is then why are we trying to fix it with just meds.
             I am all for the organic and natural ways of making your body healthy because we are using what God has given us in that way. When you show that you have signs of life, it is dinfantly not the same as having life. Trust me I have been down that road and I hate it. My anxiety meds. kept me alive in a sense that I was moving and talking every day but not in a good way. I wasn't living my life like God intended me to live it. It is like those meds. only made me live on the inside and care about me and not what was outside and around me. I made people care about me. I didn't care about other people. I am much more aware of how other people feel know then I was when I was on the meds. and I love that because I can make a difference for God that way.
             Really the last meds. I was on kept me from having and living a life. I was so depressed and worried about things that I couldn't have fun. It is strange because during the sermon too and I know I already wrote this quote somewhere but it is just as important here too, my pastor said, "Mind and heart works together to trust and believe". To me, a person that has been on anxiety meds. know that is truer then probably anyone else in the world. You get more anxious and depressed on those meds. because your mind is getting "fixed" but your heart isn't. They are out of rhythm when you are taking the meds. or they were for me. I was fighting within myself but kept it hidden really good that nobody saw but it made me so sleepy.
              We can use all the signs for and of life that we want but we can't forget about our spiritual well being. That is just as important as our physical bodies. We can't take something that will mess that up. When my pastor said, "Jesus is the Source of Life", that made me happy and made me think through all of this. No wonder I feel better now then I did in the past and no wonder that I am moving on in life instead of hanging back. There are only 2 signs for our spiritual life and to keep in check to see if Jesus is our Source and here they are:

-We have Love for God and others. Not just ourselves.
-We obey God's commands. Not our feelings.
 
               There is a verse that I love and think that explains signs of life perfectly and it is 1 John 5:3-4.

"3 In fact, this is love for God: to keep his commands. And his commands are not burdensome, 4 for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith.

              God's commands are meant to give us joy. They are not meant to burden us. We should do them with Love in our hearts. I know that sounds cheesy but that is the best way I can put it for now. When we do His Commands, not only should they give us joy but they do because we have victory over the world. God has given us that victory already and we should hold onto that.