"You don't just fall in love. Love is a choice because you choose to invest in a person."
I heard this quote from church camp a long time ago when I was a consulor to some jr. high girls and it hit me then. The message was kind of the same at church this past Sunday so the quote came back to mind and it is, again, the perfect time in my life for it. You might be asking what in the world do you mean by this quote because as humans we think we just fall in love I mean that is what all the movies show us, right? Love, especially deep love, is so much more then that.
Deep and meaningful love is a choice because you chose to invest in a person. You can "fall" for just anyone but it takes someone special for you to invest in and spend time with and maybe, hopefully, the rest of your life. I call it "deep love" too because that is a neat way to think about it between God and us. God had such a deep love for us that he chose to invest in us and give us the time to choose if we what to invest in Him. We choose to invest in Him when we take the time to study the Bible and talk to Him along with following what He has planned for us.
I love being a single women and seeing this with our Creator before being married. You hear all the time that the marriage relationship should be that of the one that is between you and God. I started to question it not to long ago but now I'm starting to see the beauty of it. I mean just by choosing and investing in one person is beautiful especially when you look wand see that is what God is doing to you. Don't you want to be loved that same way and don't you want to love someone else in that same way.
Yes, we are human and we will ever be able to reach that love that God has for us as his children but that is the beauty of His Love. We can still try to reach that and love people like that or near that every once in awhile. It is also so sweet and beautiful to see that even though we mess up so many times God still loves us and cares for us. I hear people say sometimes that there might not be "the one" for us, the perfect one that girls dream of. That prefect prince in shining armor. Really, on earth there isn't a guy like that because we are all human and will mess up but that is why we want to make God the center of our lives before marriage and of course during marriage. That's why we can't be unequally yoked.
Really, that prefect prince in shining armor is God and our focus should be on Him all the time. Girls, we are his princesses and He will take care of us all the time. Our focus should be on Him because if it isn't how can we serve our human husbands if we can't even serve on Heavenly One. He just brings a man that will take care of us and that we can have campanionship with on this earth. He still wants to be a part of our lives whether married or not because a human cannot make us fully happy ever. Sorry guys. :)
Remember, we don't fall in Love, we choose to invest in a certain person. Just like God chose to invest HIS LIFE AND SON in us.
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
Friday, September 12, 2014
Learn About Happiness
"Sometimes we have to learn how to be happy". It is so neat to see happiness where I work because you know the children are really happy when they are and it is the process of how they get to be happy moving from their situation to ours. So much can be done with just a routine and someone you loves them. I have recently seen some children that came in really upset and sad but when they left they were happy and smiling. One child was homeless and the other child was living in a bad house.
The homeless child was a girl that her dad "gave up freely". Now some of you might be thinking why would he do that but he cared enough for her to do that because he knew it would be better for her them being homeless. It was so sad to see her come in on her first day because you could just tell by the clothes she was wearing that she was homeless. I didn't think anything about it until I found out that why she was there. She was a mess. Very clingy to me and cried all the time. Didn't want to play with her peers. Didn't want to be by herself and would hit her head on her pillow when she would go to sleep. She would also cry if I was not the person in the room with her. She was very attached to me. Her hair was a mess but we had someone cut it and she looked really cute.
Before she left, her attitude changed totally around. She would play with her peers. She would laugh and smile more. She "let go" of me. Wasn't so clingy to me. She calmed herself down and went to sleep on her own. I still needed to be the one in there when I was there but she did fine otherwise. I didn't want her to leave because the week before she left she was all smiles and laughter everyday and that was the first week she was like that. She went back and forth a lot depending on the day but that week was so life changing for me just to see how happy a child can be yet been through a lot.
The other child living in a bad house was a boy. He told us a lot about what he remembered of his house. He talked a lot about pipes and was interesting in the drain in the bath tub. He loved to "work" on the toy cars we had in the gym. He would actually get under the car and pretend he was working on it. He came in his first day not playing but just sitting around. He would not go play with his peers at all. He would just sit at a table and cry and say he wanted his mommy, daddy and sister. He would play alone a lot outside of the rooms. Before he left, he would play with his peers. Talk a lot more. He cried a lot less. He also when he got there would cry when his sister left from supper and if he saw her there he would cry too. It got to where he didn't want to sit by her as often and he just whined when he saw her instead of crying. He would stop faster once he got busy playing.
It is so neat to see how a child's life can change just in 3 months or less. Sometimes you don't think about it until after they leave and you miss them and start talking about them to people. I will have stories to tell from this job and a lot of them.
The homeless child was a girl that her dad "gave up freely". Now some of you might be thinking why would he do that but he cared enough for her to do that because he knew it would be better for her them being homeless. It was so sad to see her come in on her first day because you could just tell by the clothes she was wearing that she was homeless. I didn't think anything about it until I found out that why she was there. She was a mess. Very clingy to me and cried all the time. Didn't want to play with her peers. Didn't want to be by herself and would hit her head on her pillow when she would go to sleep. She would also cry if I was not the person in the room with her. She was very attached to me. Her hair was a mess but we had someone cut it and she looked really cute.
Before she left, her attitude changed totally around. She would play with her peers. She would laugh and smile more. She "let go" of me. Wasn't so clingy to me. She calmed herself down and went to sleep on her own. I still needed to be the one in there when I was there but she did fine otherwise. I didn't want her to leave because the week before she left she was all smiles and laughter everyday and that was the first week she was like that. She went back and forth a lot depending on the day but that week was so life changing for me just to see how happy a child can be yet been through a lot.
The other child living in a bad house was a boy. He told us a lot about what he remembered of his house. He talked a lot about pipes and was interesting in the drain in the bath tub. He loved to "work" on the toy cars we had in the gym. He would actually get under the car and pretend he was working on it. He came in his first day not playing but just sitting around. He would not go play with his peers at all. He would just sit at a table and cry and say he wanted his mommy, daddy and sister. He would play alone a lot outside of the rooms. Before he left, he would play with his peers. Talk a lot more. He cried a lot less. He also when he got there would cry when his sister left from supper and if he saw her there he would cry too. It got to where he didn't want to sit by her as often and he just whined when he saw her instead of crying. He would stop faster once he got busy playing.
It is so neat to see how a child's life can change just in 3 months or less. Sometimes you don't think about it until after they leave and you miss them and start talking about them to people. I will have stories to tell from this job and a lot of them.
Thursday, September 11, 2014
Lost and Searching in the 20s
People might think that this is a sad entry when they read the title at first. It is a really good thing for me to think about, though. I am 26 years of age going to turn 27 in about 4 months and I'm still searching for my place in life. What got me thinking this way is a Bible study that I started taking this past Sunday at my church called "The Signfiance Women". It is about the personal mission that God has for us as women. It has a part where I think about the life experiences that have happened in my life so far and it goes all the way up to the 90s but I'm so young I only get to fill in 4 boxes.
It is funny because my 14-20 and 21-27 box is not big enough in the book. I had to get a notebook size piece of paper and write all my experiences out on that. When I was writing them all out, I noticed 2 themes in the good and the bad experiences. I was loss and searching for where I fit in life. I have had the oldest members of my family pass away, moved a lot to different places, and high school life. I've lost friends and gain new ones. I've been on mission trips during those time because I was searching and wanted to travel the world.
I used to think when people would say, "oh, 20s are the times where you grow and live and experience" I didn't think it was true but it is. I see why some people including me are not married in their 20s even late 20s and I'm glad I'm not. I have no idea who I am yet and probably never will because I will keep changing and searching but I can get a good idea know of who I am. The 20s are the adventure of a lifetime and you do what to live them to the fullest. Make your dreams come true. See what kind of group of people you get along with in "real" life, not because you have to but because you want to. You want to stick with that person or that friend because you have things in common and you can see they care.
Looking back at my 20 years even though I have 3 more left, I realize that I can't and won't regret those years because those are the years that changed me. We thinking being loss and searching for meaning is hopeless but when we look to God in that time, we are only growing more in Him and we make our older life stronger. It is funny because the job I have right now fits my life and it might be children I'm hanging out with now but they get it in their own little way. It is the first time you are out on your own exploring how good of choices you can make on your own through the good and the bad.
I'm thankful for the 20s years. I, sometimes, get on to myself because I can't commitment or settle with one job or person or anything just yet but now I see it doesn't matter. I see I'm still learning about myself and seeing what I can and can't do but yet I am enjoying every min. of it because I love to learn. That's the teacher in me. Lost and searching is a good title for the 20s. God gives and takes away to see what you can handle and why not do it young when you still have the energy to put up with the stresses it brings.
For me, I have been through a lot in the last 7 years but at the same time I would not trade it for the world. It has been so God-driven too. Some moments I look back at and think how did I ever get through that moment or that year. Now I know it was God there with me along encouraging me and building me into the women He wants me to be.
It is funny because my 14-20 and 21-27 box is not big enough in the book. I had to get a notebook size piece of paper and write all my experiences out on that. When I was writing them all out, I noticed 2 themes in the good and the bad experiences. I was loss and searching for where I fit in life. I have had the oldest members of my family pass away, moved a lot to different places, and high school life. I've lost friends and gain new ones. I've been on mission trips during those time because I was searching and wanted to travel the world.
I used to think when people would say, "oh, 20s are the times where you grow and live and experience" I didn't think it was true but it is. I see why some people including me are not married in their 20s even late 20s and I'm glad I'm not. I have no idea who I am yet and probably never will because I will keep changing and searching but I can get a good idea know of who I am. The 20s are the adventure of a lifetime and you do what to live them to the fullest. Make your dreams come true. See what kind of group of people you get along with in "real" life, not because you have to but because you want to. You want to stick with that person or that friend because you have things in common and you can see they care.
Looking back at my 20 years even though I have 3 more left, I realize that I can't and won't regret those years because those are the years that changed me. We thinking being loss and searching for meaning is hopeless but when we look to God in that time, we are only growing more in Him and we make our older life stronger. It is funny because the job I have right now fits my life and it might be children I'm hanging out with now but they get it in their own little way. It is the first time you are out on your own exploring how good of choices you can make on your own through the good and the bad.
I'm thankful for the 20s years. I, sometimes, get on to myself because I can't commitment or settle with one job or person or anything just yet but now I see it doesn't matter. I see I'm still learning about myself and seeing what I can and can't do but yet I am enjoying every min. of it because I love to learn. That's the teacher in me. Lost and searching is a good title for the 20s. God gives and takes away to see what you can handle and why not do it young when you still have the energy to put up with the stresses it brings.
For me, I have been through a lot in the last 7 years but at the same time I would not trade it for the world. It has been so God-driven too. Some moments I look back at and think how did I ever get through that moment or that year. Now I know it was God there with me along encouraging me and building me into the women He wants me to be.
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
Where's God?
This is just going to be a short little story of something that one of the little boys did and said at my job. I started to take the time to talk to him Friday night about what was going on in his life. Just sitting him on my lap and listening to him tell his story his way and I know I wrote about it 2 enteries before this one. Going back after the weekend, I saw a whole new him yesterday.
He acted amazing! No misbehaving. He did talk more like a baby which I was sad about but when I reminded him to talk like a big boy he did. When another peer would try to make him mad, he would just go somewhere else away from that peer instead of getting mad at him. No dumping toys out. He was like a whole new child just because someone would sit and listen. He also made me a card that I found in my mailbox before work yesterday with the help of another teacher.
He would not go to bed again last night for the other teacher so I took him in and tried to talk to him again. That didn't quite work so I read to him and gave him a little toy to hold. I read him a disguised story about Daniel and the Lion's Den and he kept asking questions like little boys do. He seemed to have no idea what the story was really about but it was cute because he did ask a question I'll never forget. He was looking at the pages on his own while laying down to relax and he turned to one page and asked, "Where's God?" He remembered me saying the word "God".
I, of course, gave him a "real" answer that he could understand so I told him he was up in the sky on the page because the author had drawn a little bit of sky. By now you all should know how my mind works so that question went into adult form for me. Through everything that I have been and am going through, "Where is God?" in all of that. Am I trusting Him or just going about my day? AM I making a difference for Him? Earlier that day, God had answer one of my many prayers and I thought about that too. That as long as I had to wait patiently for Him to answer, He came through like He always does. It was just a great reminder and went right along with my day yesterday.
I challenge you all to ask yourself, "Where is God in my life today?" because it will help you be more focus for Him and on Him. You are likely to see things and do things in His way and for Him if you a focused on Him.
He acted amazing! No misbehaving. He did talk more like a baby which I was sad about but when I reminded him to talk like a big boy he did. When another peer would try to make him mad, he would just go somewhere else away from that peer instead of getting mad at him. No dumping toys out. He was like a whole new child just because someone would sit and listen. He also made me a card that I found in my mailbox before work yesterday with the help of another teacher.
He would not go to bed again last night for the other teacher so I took him in and tried to talk to him again. That didn't quite work so I read to him and gave him a little toy to hold. I read him a disguised story about Daniel and the Lion's Den and he kept asking questions like little boys do. He seemed to have no idea what the story was really about but it was cute because he did ask a question I'll never forget. He was looking at the pages on his own while laying down to relax and he turned to one page and asked, "Where's God?" He remembered me saying the word "God".
I, of course, gave him a "real" answer that he could understand so I told him he was up in the sky on the page because the author had drawn a little bit of sky. By now you all should know how my mind works so that question went into adult form for me. Through everything that I have been and am going through, "Where is God?" in all of that. Am I trusting Him or just going about my day? AM I making a difference for Him? Earlier that day, God had answer one of my many prayers and I thought about that too. That as long as I had to wait patiently for Him to answer, He came through like He always does. It was just a great reminder and went right along with my day yesterday.
I challenge you all to ask yourself, "Where is God in my life today?" because it will help you be more focus for Him and on Him. You are likely to see things and do things in His way and for Him if you a focused on Him.
Monday, September 8, 2014
Good Support Group Matters
"Don't be selfish, don't live to make a good impression on others. Be humble, thinking of others better then yourself. Don't think only about your own affairs but be interested in others, too, and what they are doing. Your attitude should be the same that of Jesus Christ. Though He was God He did not demand and cling to his rights as God. He made himself nothing, He took on the humble position of a slave and appeared in human form. And in the human form he obediently humbled himself even further by dying a criminal's death on a cross."- Philippians 2:3-8
These verses are ones I have looked at but haven't been doing a great job of lately. I've been so busy at work and so set in my ways and woe is me type attitude that I haven't cared for my friends as I should have been. Because of that, I'm losing a lot of them if not lost them already. Some friends are telling me to look to other people and help them and my attitude will change a lot. I don't know what has gotten into me this past year. I love to listen and encourage that was a big part of me in college.
We had this encouragement box at BSU and I would love to write a note in there or even pass them out the the people they belonged to. As I am out in the real world that has faded away a little bit and I hate that. I would love a job where I could just listen and encourage and get paid for that. Good group of supportive friends do matter and I want to be one of those friends. I had a real hard time this weekend just fighting different things that the devil threw my way and i had friends come up beside me and just "hold me" and encourage me to keep on going. They gave me some advice, verses, and other ideas to look into. Even though, I know God is my Guide and Leader He can and has used those friends in so many ways.
Saturday night I just felt like I wanted to be alone at church and I was. I sat by myself because I had a hard week at work. Most people don't believe that the devil can get you when you are alone. Well, now I believe because without my support group of friends at church, I feel like the devil has tried to get me two times in church while I'm by myself. The strange thing is all the people were "missionaries". One from Costa Rica and the others from a Latter of Christ Church. Not impressed at all. For me, they were all too pushy and if you know me personally you know what I mean by that. No one calls me on the phone just after the first time we met or calls me beautiful when they don't even know me deeply.
I truly believe though that the devil saw those chances of where I was weak and worn out because of work so he tried to get me but every time I have had a friend or few friends that I could turn to for help. To make more sense of what happened Saturday, I got up in the middle of the early morning and just started to cry and my head was hurting non-stop and I just felt really sick and hurting all over. I've had these fits before and I've had other fits where I will just start screaming and crying really hard uncontrollably for a few mins. Something will set it off but then I think back and would be like why did I do that again.
I'm not trying to scare or make anyone believe. This probably isn't the best place for me to share this but I just want people to know that the Bible is true and the devil is out there and will try to get us at our weakness, alone moments so you need to have those strong, good, supportive friends beside you at all times. Knowing you can run to them and this weekend for me, I saw that a lot. I saw who was there for me and who was not in many ways. I know I also have been complaining a lot too and that people that will just listen to my complaining mean a lot too.
If you don't have a good supportive group of friends, I would recommend on getting one. For all my friends that read this, thank you for helping me grow more into the person that God has made me to be but I know He isn't done with me yet and won't be until I meet Him in Heaven. :) I want to be there for you all too. I know I need to do a better job at it.
All this to wrap that verse I started with up. "Looking to the interests of others will keep you God focused and keep your mind off of yourself. Other people need you more then you need yourself."
These verses are ones I have looked at but haven't been doing a great job of lately. I've been so busy at work and so set in my ways and woe is me type attitude that I haven't cared for my friends as I should have been. Because of that, I'm losing a lot of them if not lost them already. Some friends are telling me to look to other people and help them and my attitude will change a lot. I don't know what has gotten into me this past year. I love to listen and encourage that was a big part of me in college.
We had this encouragement box at BSU and I would love to write a note in there or even pass them out the the people they belonged to. As I am out in the real world that has faded away a little bit and I hate that. I would love a job where I could just listen and encourage and get paid for that. Good group of supportive friends do matter and I want to be one of those friends. I had a real hard time this weekend just fighting different things that the devil threw my way and i had friends come up beside me and just "hold me" and encourage me to keep on going. They gave me some advice, verses, and other ideas to look into. Even though, I know God is my Guide and Leader He can and has used those friends in so many ways.
Saturday night I just felt like I wanted to be alone at church and I was. I sat by myself because I had a hard week at work. Most people don't believe that the devil can get you when you are alone. Well, now I believe because without my support group of friends at church, I feel like the devil has tried to get me two times in church while I'm by myself. The strange thing is all the people were "missionaries". One from Costa Rica and the others from a Latter of Christ Church. Not impressed at all. For me, they were all too pushy and if you know me personally you know what I mean by that. No one calls me on the phone just after the first time we met or calls me beautiful when they don't even know me deeply.
I truly believe though that the devil saw those chances of where I was weak and worn out because of work so he tried to get me but every time I have had a friend or few friends that I could turn to for help. To make more sense of what happened Saturday, I got up in the middle of the early morning and just started to cry and my head was hurting non-stop and I just felt really sick and hurting all over. I've had these fits before and I've had other fits where I will just start screaming and crying really hard uncontrollably for a few mins. Something will set it off but then I think back and would be like why did I do that again.
I'm not trying to scare or make anyone believe. This probably isn't the best place for me to share this but I just want people to know that the Bible is true and the devil is out there and will try to get us at our weakness, alone moments so you need to have those strong, good, supportive friends beside you at all times. Knowing you can run to them and this weekend for me, I saw that a lot. I saw who was there for me and who was not in many ways. I know I also have been complaining a lot too and that people that will just listen to my complaining mean a lot too.
If you don't have a good supportive group of friends, I would recommend on getting one. For all my friends that read this, thank you for helping me grow more into the person that God has made me to be but I know He isn't done with me yet and won't be until I meet Him in Heaven. :) I want to be there for you all too. I know I need to do a better job at it.
All this to wrap that verse I started with up. "Looking to the interests of others will keep you God focused and keep your mind off of yourself. Other people need you more then you need yourself."
Friday, September 5, 2014
When God Reminds You.......
It has been a long week but everything turned out good at the end. God always gives you those little moments to remind you that He puts you in a place for a reason. I had two of those reminders this week and some hard ones too. I could write an entry about each one but I know I won't have time so I'm going to write all about them in this one.
First, one of my girls had to have surgery for her ears and throat at the same time. She had to stay over at the hospital overnight so I went there to be with her in the morning. Let me tell you I was shocked when I first went in her room. Seeing that little girl asleep with IVs and everything else hooked up to her. After hearing what went on the night before, it was truly a miracle. She also cried while me and another co-worker was trading spots. Then she went back to sleep for awhile after I held her for a bit. When she woke up the second time, she actually smiled at me a little bit and ate a popsicle that I had to cut into tiny pieces.
It was a miracle that she smiled when she woke up because I had just got done praying for her in my morning prayer that she would get well sooner then later and that we would get to go back. After that one nap, she took one more before lunch and then woke up during lunch and ate a little bit and then stayed awake until it was time to go back. She watched some TV and I gave her some books to look at and she would smile at me off and on. I also thought of something while I was there that really got to me after lunch.
The drs. said that we might be able to discharged soon so I called people to let them know and give then an update and I got to thinking about things. What if this little girl didn't have anyone there with her. I felt bad that they didn't call me to ask for updates and see how she was doing. To me, it was like no one really cared. I'm not saying that they don't, I know they do but they were just busy. Sometimes we get too busy to think about other people or the ones we use to care about or old friends. It must have been rough not having a mom there at one of the hardest times in her young life. Just these 4 random people, not one person that can stay all that time. It was like she had to cry and be scared all over again and that crying was not good for her. I remember thinking that I have this job for this reason and I did feel like a "preacher" or "missionary" going and visiting her. You know how they visit people from church when they are sick?
Then I just had a reminder again tonight when one of my little boys woke up from bed. It has been a long time for me where I could just sit down and talk to any of the children because things have been busy at work being short handed and all. Well, tonight I got to sit down and talk to one of my boys about how he felt and he felt scared. It was a long process but worth it all. We went to ghosts being in the jungle to him wanting me to take him him because he wanted Mimi and mommy. It was so sad. I had to remind him that he was safe where he is now and that mimi and mommy had to make good choices before they could see him.
He started to talk about his Mimi for a little bit but then he started to cry so he went back to talking about the jungle and some animals that lived there. He kept repeating that he was scared of this and that in the jungle so I asked him if a hug would make him feel better and he said, yes so I hugged and rocked him for a bit. While we were rocking, he started to talk about his mommy and how he wanted me to take him to her because he wanted to sleep with her. He also talked some about someone laying down beside him on his bed and yelling at him. It was creative yet scary for me too. I love to talk to children and get stories like these because then I try to think about it and see what they mean. Children can't really explain what they feel so they try to explain by using what they know and sometimes it make sense and sometimes it doesn't. It could make a neat short story someday.
God knew what I needed to be reminded of and why I am there for this season of my life and He knew when I needed it. It was after a very hard and long week. He knows us best, we just have to trust Him.
First, one of my girls had to have surgery for her ears and throat at the same time. She had to stay over at the hospital overnight so I went there to be with her in the morning. Let me tell you I was shocked when I first went in her room. Seeing that little girl asleep with IVs and everything else hooked up to her. After hearing what went on the night before, it was truly a miracle. She also cried while me and another co-worker was trading spots. Then she went back to sleep for awhile after I held her for a bit. When she woke up the second time, she actually smiled at me a little bit and ate a popsicle that I had to cut into tiny pieces.
It was a miracle that she smiled when she woke up because I had just got done praying for her in my morning prayer that she would get well sooner then later and that we would get to go back. After that one nap, she took one more before lunch and then woke up during lunch and ate a little bit and then stayed awake until it was time to go back. She watched some TV and I gave her some books to look at and she would smile at me off and on. I also thought of something while I was there that really got to me after lunch.
The drs. said that we might be able to discharged soon so I called people to let them know and give then an update and I got to thinking about things. What if this little girl didn't have anyone there with her. I felt bad that they didn't call me to ask for updates and see how she was doing. To me, it was like no one really cared. I'm not saying that they don't, I know they do but they were just busy. Sometimes we get too busy to think about other people or the ones we use to care about or old friends. It must have been rough not having a mom there at one of the hardest times in her young life. Just these 4 random people, not one person that can stay all that time. It was like she had to cry and be scared all over again and that crying was not good for her. I remember thinking that I have this job for this reason and I did feel like a "preacher" or "missionary" going and visiting her. You know how they visit people from church when they are sick?
Then I just had a reminder again tonight when one of my little boys woke up from bed. It has been a long time for me where I could just sit down and talk to any of the children because things have been busy at work being short handed and all. Well, tonight I got to sit down and talk to one of my boys about how he felt and he felt scared. It was a long process but worth it all. We went to ghosts being in the jungle to him wanting me to take him him because he wanted Mimi and mommy. It was so sad. I had to remind him that he was safe where he is now and that mimi and mommy had to make good choices before they could see him.
He started to talk about his Mimi for a little bit but then he started to cry so he went back to talking about the jungle and some animals that lived there. He kept repeating that he was scared of this and that in the jungle so I asked him if a hug would make him feel better and he said, yes so I hugged and rocked him for a bit. While we were rocking, he started to talk about his mommy and how he wanted me to take him to her because he wanted to sleep with her. He also talked some about someone laying down beside him on his bed and yelling at him. It was creative yet scary for me too. I love to talk to children and get stories like these because then I try to think about it and see what they mean. Children can't really explain what they feel so they try to explain by using what they know and sometimes it make sense and sometimes it doesn't. It could make a neat short story someday.
God knew what I needed to be reminded of and why I am there for this season of my life and He knew when I needed it. It was after a very hard and long week. He knows us best, we just have to trust Him.
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
Preparing for the Process Called Life
Are we ever prepared for the Process called "Life"? If we were, we would get nothing done and it wouldn't be as much fun. I was talking to a friend of mine earlier last week and we were talking about being prepared for dating or going out with another person. First I thought, "Ok, that is neat that this person wants to be prepared before actually going out because it is nice to know about things and know what to do." Then as the weeks went on, I got to thinking about the real meaning behind it down deeper because I'm a deep thinker. This thought came to my mind, "Will we really be prepared for the process of meeting that person and then that first date with that person or the next step in life or so on whatever it might be?" We can get prepare the way we think "being prepared" mean but ARE WE REALLY PREPARED?
Through my experiences and job lately the answer for me is "no" and for me that is a tough answer. I'm the kind of person who likes to have things planned out and know what the next step is going to be in life. I am a big time organizer because it helps me get things done. I always had my life planned up tip after I graduated college. It was there that it all started to undue and just almost 2 years ago it got so messed up and changed completely but it is better then I ever thought it would be in so many ways. God knew what He was doing.
Like I said if I had to pull something away from this chapter or moment in my life with this job it would be that "you can't prepare for any process in life". I have so many examples just from my job now and all that has been going on there. I would have to say that I learned that from the children too because you know they do not plan what will happen to them next. They have no idea just like we have no idea what is next in our life. We are all the same in that way. When I look at my life that way, I can't be more blessed then I am now.
When I started this job, I had no idea what I was getting myself into. Yes, I have been on mission trips to orphanages and other places but still had no idea what it would be like in the states. The children have touched my life in so many ways there every one of them along with some of the staff and co-workers. I have worked by myself with the preschoolers and never thought I would. I have seen things I never thought I would in real life. We have children come in and out in a day that is planned 15 mins before they get here. You have to change what you do and how you do it for every new group of children or even child.
I learn new things everyday of how I can changed what I do through the co-workers. Things have happened these past few years whether at work or just my personal life that I never thought I would have to go through or be apart of from job to friends. I have different friends for different parts of my life. I'm learning new things about me and sometimes feel like I'm starting over in a lot of ways. Things are happening like I never thought they would. Meeting people where I never thought I would. I wish I could go into more details on some of what is happening because this entry would make more sense but I don't want to point fingers at anyone so I won't. Good or bad.
You just have to go with the flow of life. When you do that, it just seems a lot easier. When you don't plan or prepare, you have nothing to worry about. I'm not saying let go of your beliefs or goals but I am saying especially on your goals do not be set on them because God might what something else for you that you don't know yet. Honestly, depending on your beliefs, I know mine are what gets me through any times, the good and the bad.
Life is truly a process but it is a process that we can never really be prepared for. Things happen and we have no control over them but we can trust the One who does and that is God. He knows what is best for us better then we do all the time. Just to think about something too. God doesn't like us being prepared because it is when we are not prepared that He give the best things to us. We get too focused on our plans that we forget about Him sometimes. When we can be ourselves and just live life and TRUST HIM that is when life will be in "order" but not in the order.
Through my experiences and job lately the answer for me is "no" and for me that is a tough answer. I'm the kind of person who likes to have things planned out and know what the next step is going to be in life. I am a big time organizer because it helps me get things done. I always had my life planned up tip after I graduated college. It was there that it all started to undue and just almost 2 years ago it got so messed up and changed completely but it is better then I ever thought it would be in so many ways. God knew what He was doing.
Like I said if I had to pull something away from this chapter or moment in my life with this job it would be that "you can't prepare for any process in life". I have so many examples just from my job now and all that has been going on there. I would have to say that I learned that from the children too because you know they do not plan what will happen to them next. They have no idea just like we have no idea what is next in our life. We are all the same in that way. When I look at my life that way, I can't be more blessed then I am now.
When I started this job, I had no idea what I was getting myself into. Yes, I have been on mission trips to orphanages and other places but still had no idea what it would be like in the states. The children have touched my life in so many ways there every one of them along with some of the staff and co-workers. I have worked by myself with the preschoolers and never thought I would. I have seen things I never thought I would in real life. We have children come in and out in a day that is planned 15 mins before they get here. You have to change what you do and how you do it for every new group of children or even child.
I learn new things everyday of how I can changed what I do through the co-workers. Things have happened these past few years whether at work or just my personal life that I never thought I would have to go through or be apart of from job to friends. I have different friends for different parts of my life. I'm learning new things about me and sometimes feel like I'm starting over in a lot of ways. Things are happening like I never thought they would. Meeting people where I never thought I would. I wish I could go into more details on some of what is happening because this entry would make more sense but I don't want to point fingers at anyone so I won't. Good or bad.
You just have to go with the flow of life. When you do that, it just seems a lot easier. When you don't plan or prepare, you have nothing to worry about. I'm not saying let go of your beliefs or goals but I am saying especially on your goals do not be set on them because God might what something else for you that you don't know yet. Honestly, depending on your beliefs, I know mine are what gets me through any times, the good and the bad.
Life is truly a process but it is a process that we can never really be prepared for. Things happen and we have no control over them but we can trust the One who does and that is God. He knows what is best for us better then we do all the time. Just to think about something too. God doesn't like us being prepared because it is when we are not prepared that He give the best things to us. We get too focused on our plans that we forget about Him sometimes. When we can be ourselves and just live life and TRUST HIM that is when life will be in "order" but not in the order.
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