Lost and Searching in the 20s

       People might think that this is a sad entry when they read the title at first. It is a really good thing for me to think about, though. I am 26 years of age going to turn 27 in about 4 months and I'm still searching for my place in life. What got me thinking this way is a Bible study that I started taking this past Sunday at my church called "The Signfiance Women".  It is about the personal mission that God has for us as women. It has a part where I think about the life experiences that have happened in my life so far and it goes all the way up to the 90s but I'm so young I only get to fill in 4 boxes.
        It is funny because my 14-20 and 21-27 box is not big enough in the book. I had to get a notebook size piece of paper and write all my experiences out on that. When I was writing them all out, I noticed 2 themes in the good and the bad experiences. I was loss and searching for where I fit in life. I have had  the oldest members of my family pass away, moved a lot to different places, and high school life. I've lost friends and gain new ones. I've been on mission trips during those time because I was searching and wanted to travel the world.
         I used to think when people would say, "oh, 20s are the times where you grow and live and experience" I didn't think it was true but it is. I see why some people including me are not married in their 20s even late 20s and I'm glad I'm not. I have no idea who I am yet and probably never will because I will keep changing and searching but I can get a good idea know of who I am. The 20s are the adventure of a lifetime and you do what to live them to the fullest. Make your dreams come true. See what kind of group of people you get along with in "real" life, not because you have to but because you want to. You want to stick with that person or that friend because you have things in common and you can see they care.
         Looking back at my 20 years even though I have 3 more left, I realize that I can't and won't regret those years because those are the years that changed me. We thinking being loss and searching for meaning is hopeless but when we look to God in that time, we are only growing more in Him and we make our older life stronger. It is funny because the job I have right now fits my life and it might be children I'm hanging out with now but they get it in their own little way. It is the first time you are out on your own exploring how good of choices you can make on your own through the good and the bad.
         I'm thankful for the 20s years. I, sometimes, get on to myself because I can't commitment or settle with one job or person or anything just yet but now I see it doesn't matter. I see I'm still learning about myself and seeing what I can and can't do but yet I am enjoying every min. of it because I love to learn. That's the teacher in me. Lost and searching is a good title for the 20s. God gives and takes away to see what you can handle and why not do it young when you still have the energy to put up with the stresses it brings.
         For me, I have been through a lot in the last 7 years but at the same time I would not trade it for the world. It has been so God-driven too.  Some moments I look back at and think how did I ever get through that moment or that year. Now I know it was God there with me along encouraging me and building me into the women He wants me to be.