Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

        God always knows what I need to start a new year off right. I was looking back at the entry that I wrote last Jan. on New Year's Day and I can see a theme going on. The phase and word that I felt like I needed to learn more about was "Speaking the Truth in Love" and the word was "Truth". As I look back now, it wasn't like I planned it at all. The year had all sorts of craziness going on in it for me personally and then my family and friends that brought a lot on me too. There were some moments that I could tell that I was speaking the truth in Love to other people or at least trying to but as I look back, I see more that God was trying to speak His Truth in Love to me.           I spent a lot of time "alone" this year or with a few friends here and there. I had place whatsoever to spend time with big groups of people. That's just not me. I spent a lot more time doing Bible studies that had to do with breaking free and having room to ...

        This entry will be a little different then my other entries. I've been second hand to a situation that has made me upset and worried for the past few days. It is having me look and praying for a miracle even though I don't know the person personally. When I say that I have been second hand in the situation, that is what I mean. I don't know the person that the situation is about but I know some of his friends and some of his friends are close friends of mine so therefore, my heart hurt for my friends that as had direct connection with the situation.         I am learning a lot from this situation. When you care for someone, especially in the hunting industry, you need to let them know that you care for them every chance you get. You just never know when a hunting trip will go wrong or when the gun will go off just randomly. I will be truthful, right here and right now, but I have always been kind of scared of hunting. I can see the fun si...

         Sometime I will get a life to where I can stop writing about every little thing but right now, it is all about the memories I am making, right and wrong ones. It is a life to where I want to choose what I want to do for my future family and then share it later on with my future husband if God is willing. I really do believe as singles, people learn a lot about themselves and what they really want for other people. I still can't see how some people can get married out of high school or college but then again God has different plans for everyone.          I am writing on this fine Christmas morning because I can't stay asleep, even though, I really want to but it is a tradition that will never break me especially if I am not home on Christmas Eve. Oddly enough, I just learned that as I woke up this morning. I am never again spending Christmas Eve night by myself. There is no way that I can get any sleep. I'm just too excited to g...

        This Christmas Eve was very different for me then the last two Christmas Eves in the past 2 years. It was really strange for me. I had to work until 6:00 so I couldn't go home so I spent Christmas Eve by myself but I'm glad I didn't go home this year because throughout the day my eyes were open.  I only had 3 children and not 15 children on Christmas Eve and that is a good difference. It is good because it meant they had families to stay with and go home to.          I was quite at work today for moments at a time because I would just look at the babies and think about what their 1st Christmas would be like. I also almost cried at work today. They actually get a first Christmas with their parents. It is so hard working opposite jobs one after the other because it is fresh in your mind and that is all you go back on. It is like my mind has lituatlly been renewed with different things. I was playing with the babies that I had at w...

           I'm a girl that believes that God gives a lot of "second" chances or I was that girl. You messed up once you get a redo. Now I think I have turned into a woman that believes if God wants it to really happen, He will give you a real second chance. I always use to think, especially, in high school and after, that God will give you second chances on the little things like talking to someone when you missed the chance to the other day or go to something next year that you missed this year. I always looked for second chances with the little things and not the big things.           I'm here to say that I am a woman of the God that gives Second Chances. God just knew that He had to get you ready and get you through the tough things in life because part of those tough things were to help you learn who you really were so you could relate to people around you. The past two years haven't been the easiest for me to change back to my...

       Here are some signs of what Christmas Hope and even everyday Hope could look like for each and every Christian and the verses that you can look up to see the whole story of each sign. Christmas Hope is:        -the virgin Mary                           -Isaiah 7:14                     -the Christmas Lights                            -Isaiah 9:2        - Branch of a Christmas tree                            -Isaiah 11:1-3        -family being together                           -Isaiah 40:1,5            -a quite night ...

        "You've begun to move forward, to make changes, to recognize the incredible woman you are and become more of who God created you to be. And the enemy would love nothing more than to convince you it's too much, you can't do it, there's not enough time.....the list is endless. But it's not true, dear friend, You can change. You can grow. You already have-don't let anything stand in your way."-Holley Gerth         "Are you ready to take the next step? You can do this, sweet girl. With Him. In His Power. That power that created the world, spoke the stars into place, spend the sea from one shore to the another. That's the power that lives in you."-Holley Gerth         Okay, those were just two simple quotes that I wanted to write down somewhere so I wrote them down on this entry. The real reason for this entry is because I woke up thinking about what it meant to really live alone at 6:00 am on a Sunda...