Thinking about the Future

        I know that God tells us not to worry about what is ahead but just to live for today in the Bible and you hear people says, "Don't worry" and "It will be fine." I'm a nice person when it comes to most things but lately I have just been wanted to say to those people you have no idea what I am going through. That would be wrong though. They do have a little idea of what I am going through whether they are going through it now or have been through it a long time ago. They do know.
         As I am thinking about the future, though, things I should be doing now have came up and I have started doing them a lot more. Not as often as I should but more then I was on some things. I am writing a prayer list for my friends, known and unknown, and praying for each of them at least once a week. Whoever is on my prayer list I make sure to ask how they are doing or encourage them once a week or if I know something important to them is coming up. I have also started to run but I've only ran once so I need to keep working on that.
            I'm really thinking about the future, money and career wise. I think that is my biggest concern of all. I'm thinking about going back to college so I can get a Master's degree in something that is actually worth something and has a lot of openings in the job market. I am also saving more money then I was in the past. I'm actually setting a schedule of when to save per month. I'm thinking about what I will need money for like a house payment, car payment, TV, and other big things or things I don't have right now. I also want to have a family some day if God is willing so I need to start now and maybe a cat or dog to keep me company until then.
             I feel like I am ready to take that big step but I need a better job first and with the degree I have now I don't think I can get one and by better I mean well payed job. I keep thinking to myself all those things don't really matter in life but whether we like to admit it or not they really do in the life we live. That future has been on my mind for the past month for some reason and even though I love what I do, I can fine better. I am also finding out that I love that one on one with a child helping them through things whether be emotional, physical, or mental things. I barely have enough patience for 8 children at a time some days but I would have the patience for one child at a time like in a clinical setting.
            As I am thinking about the future myself, I know a lot of my friends are doing the same so that is one reason I am making the prayer list for now plus it get things off of my mind at times when they get to over baring. I am okay with admitting I don't know what I'm doing yet and I'm not all the way happy with where I am because I have people around me that feel the same way too. We can encourage each other too. I know that God has me here for a reason now and it will help me in the future especially if I take the path that I am thinking about right now.  I am happy where I am right now but I'm still praying that God will open doors for me to go to college and get my Master's and have the life that I am dreaming about right now.
           I will say this that what I am thinking right now. All of this that I'm writing was never in my plans to start with. God has been changing my path and my heart for the better and for/towards Him. He wants to use me and I am willing in whatever way He will.