Arkansas Vs. Missouri

          I am going to tell my age if you didn't already know it with all the other entries. I am a late 90's and early 2000's tween ager and teenager. Therefore, that would explain my love for the show "Hannah Montana" before she became so nuts but that is just my opinion. I have been watching some of the shows on youtube lately because I have nothing better to do with my life and that is how I relax after work. There is this one show that I felt connected with at this moment of my life that I am in right now.
        It was the show where Hannah wanted to go back to Tennessee but she didn't want to leave her friend so her dad brought them a ranch in California. She was having to decide between two states but her dad made it easy for her and brought her a ranch where they could live and keep her horse. Right now, if I was honest with myself, like Hannah was in that show, I am fighting between two states too. I wish my states were those two states but I like my two anyways. My two states are Missouri and Arkansas.
         Just like Tennessee was for Hannah, Missouri is for me. Missouri is my home state with my family and friends there. It is was a grew up in 3 different cities and my grandparents lived north and south in Missouri. That means that is where both of my parents grew up. I have also always lived in a small town or in the country in Missouri. Never a big city that I could remember. All memories were made in small towns or out in the country. It is where I went to a wonderful college and met a lot of wonderful people that are mostly still in my life to this day. Missouri is my history state but then there is Arkansas where I moved to after college and fell in love with.
        I have also grown up so much in Arkansas as a person because of the people and situations and places I have been to and through. I will admit the reason I wanted to move to Arkansas in the first place was and still is dumb when I think back on it but it has been good to me ever since. I know that God had another plans for me here then I had for myself. Plans to help some of the friends I had get through some tough things. Plans to help abused children get through 46 days of their small life. To be that special someone in their life and know that there is true love out there somewhere. Plans to trust Him in ways I never thought I could get through or that would happen to me in the first place.
        I also love all the nature that is around where I live in Bentonville, AR. I love the parks around me and the miles and miles of trails near me. I also like that I live right by the Bentonville square. I found a church that I love and can help me grow in God and be the disciple I was meant too be for Christ. It is a big church and I'm not use to that at first but then I got to know the people in it especially the women and fall in love with it. It has so many chances and things for me to do and listen to the fit me like the Early Childhood ministry. It is just great! I have my own one bedroom apartment and couldn't be happier or though I thought my first year or two here in AR.
       Even though, I still love all of that, I hate living in the city. I hate living near the Wal-mart home offices and much less around people that work for Wal-Mart. I always thought it would be fun to live in Bentonville when I saw label on things from Wal-Mart but it isn't. If I could afford my own house out in the country somewhere near Bentonville or Rogers then I would stay for sure. I just need to get out of the city life. The problem affording my own house. Do we even need to go over that? Let's just say that I picked childcare as my career. There is more to that but that is all I can say on here where everyone can see it. If you aren't a business type person then really there is no job around Wal-Mart for you.
         To be honest, if things don't change in a year or sooner then I might be going back to Missouri somehow and way. I might be able to actually stay 5 years in Arkansas but if things don't turn around for me whether friendship wise and/or career wise then I might not stay 6 years or on. I want to be free someday in my life because I never really have known what that is like. I want to be free and follow God to where He truly wants me. He might have been using Arkansas as a mission field for me and I think my time is about up. I can't believe I am saying this but I want to be back in the good 'ole Missouri country where I was born and spent the best years of my life. I want to see if I can complete the circle of life somehow.
           That, folks, is how a Hannah Montana show matches up with my life right now. Yes, I know it is a strange comparison but it is a true one at the same time.