Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

          I have been thinking about relationships lately and I came up with a few "ideas" (use the word ideas, couldn't think of a better one) that I want in a husband. I know it isn't a good idea to have too  many standards but a few is okay. It is standards that I want and that can be a lot of guys so I am not narrowing down any guys. It is strange but these are some of the things that I want. -See me who I am. -Listen to me. -Love me. -Take the chance on me. -Get to know me. -Talks to me in public. -See what I do for and with him. -See what is right in front of him. -Takes the time to get to know me.        

         It has been a long while since I wrote in here. Probably the longest I have ever kept from writing yet I have so many things to write about. I think that was my problem, I didn't know where to start. Things were crazy all around me but they have gotten better. I meant to write this in September but that month flew by.          I want to tell you a little bit about why I picked the title that I did for this entry before I go into the month that I have had because it does have a background to it. It is an embrassing background but yet it is still one. After one of the hardest days ever, I woke up and went to work like I usually did in the mornings. It was after my little boy jumped out of the swings. My co-worker that I worked with in the mornings told me the bad news about his arm being broke. Knowing me the emotions from the day were still bottled up inside me a little bit so after I left my morning shift, I wen...

Not rendering correctly? View this email as a web page  here . Give Up or God-Up TRACIE MILES September 29, 2017     “Therefore, since God in his mercy has given us this new way, we never give up.” 2 Corinthians 4:1 (NLT) Problems kept piling up — many of which I had no power or resources to resolve. I was perpetually living in survival mode and found myself simply spent.  One morning, after another set of seemingly hopeless issues reared their ugly heads, tears began to roll. I let out a heavy sigh and in a quivering voice spoke out loud,  “God, I literally don’t think I can take anymore.” Maybe you can relate. Maybe you’re a single parent, like me, and financial worries coupled with the emotional weight of parenting and being alone feels overwhelming …  Maybe you try to live frugally, yet money never seems to stretch far enough … Maybe you’re unhappy at your job, but no other opportunities have arisen … Ma...

 I wrote this prayer down last night after the Bible Study. The ideas are from the Bible study called "Proven" by Jennie Allen. Here is the prayer:               Dear Daddy,                       I need to create more the God given experiences around myself for other people to see. I need to chose to enjoy the people, children, and all kinds of work around me everyday. I need and want to lay this life down and live for the next. I need to be reminded that You are fully available. Thank you so much for being and letting me see You as the "Preparer". That's the full focus I need right now. I need to receive Your Gifts as You prepare them for me in Your Timing. I need to know and trust that I did all that I could during the day everyday. I need to have peace at the end of the day. I just need You to over flow in me that I never knew before. Things might be hard in this world but once we get ...

           I have started to look at Jesus in another way lately. I should have looked at Him in that way a long time ago. My life might be just a little better off if I did. The way I have started to look at Him is as "The Great Physician". That title came to me when I was at a Drs. Appointment earlier on this month.          I was honestly listening to everything the doctor was saying to me but in my mind it didn't make sense. He went on about the meds. I was "supposely" taking and if we needed to up it in the winter months let him know. Then he also went on again about how Important excise was while on the meds. He wanted me to join a gym and do some weights and things like that.          There are a lot of things wrong with those comments. One: I am not taking the meds. Anymore. I am on Plexus and more natural pills. Two: I know I need to eat right for...

Matthew 11:28-30 The Message (MSG) 28-30  “Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.” ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ John 7:37-38 New International Version (NIV) 37  On the last and greatest day of the festival,  Jesus stood and said in a loud voice,  “Let anyone who is thirsty come to me and drink.   38  Whoever believes  in me, as Scripture has said,  rivers of living water  will flow from within them.” ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Isaiah 43:18-19 New International Version (NIV) 18  “Forget the former things;      do not dwell on the...

Love and Hatred for Fellow Believers 7  Dear friends,  I am not writing you a new command but an old one, which you have had since the beginning.  This old command is the message you have heard. 8  Yet I am writing you a new command;  its truth is seen in him and in you, because the darkness is passing  and the true light  is already shining. 9  Anyone who claims to be in the light but hates a brother or sister is still in the darkness.   10  Anyone who loves their brother and sister [ c ]  lives in the light,  and there is nothing in them to make them stumble.   11  But anyone who hates a brother or sister  is in the darkness and walks around in the darkness.  They do not know where they are going, because the darkness has blinded them. Reasons for Writing 12  I am writing to you, dear children,      because your sins have been forgiven on account of his name. 1...