Work on Self

        I had brunch with a friend this morning and she put into words what I have been trying to do for myself lately ever since a friendship hit a rough spot. She said, "I just need to work on myself". I do not know how many times I have heard that said but it hit me this morning. Hit me because of the things going on around me.
         I need to know who I am in Christ and where He wants me in this world before adding another person to the mess. I need to seek God more and things will fall into place. I was thinking earlier this weekend about how I need to stop picking out guys for me and let God do it.
         I will admit I feel lost and confused. I do not know what I want my life to be like. I feel like I am going between two very different lifestyles. I am not as organzied as I should be. I am not as healthy as I should be. I still have a lot to learn espically money wise. 
           I need God to show me who He had meant for me to be and then when I am ready He will pick out the guy and bring him into my life. God is working on making me a better person just by wanting to seek Him. God is giving me the Love, Joy, and Peace I need to have in any situations. Even though it is hard, I am learning to back off and let it be in God's control. Having more self-control then usual. :)
          If God is teaching me anything, which I know He is, it is to have good self-control with myself first.