I Am Officially a Nerd

         I guess the title of "Nerd" will follow me the rest of my life. No matter if I want it to or not and people wonder why I don't let other people in so easily. I was just talking to my co-workers about what I do in my personal life and reasons that I don't do or do some of the things and they were like, "so you were the nerd/geek kind in school, weren't you?" I came back with what I think was a good answer to help them understand me better but then I got to thinking, "Why do you have to be a nerd when not doing things to fit in?" Is that what kids these days are getting called because they won't do certain things? Just to warn whoever is reading this, it is going to be sort of a rant too.
         Now don't get me wrong, I knew I was a nerd from the very start of my life ever since I could remember but I tried to cover it up with the title "goody two shoes" because in a way I had to be that especially in high school. I didn't have to be the nerd in class. My co-workers were kidding around about beer and wine because it was a hard day at work and you know how those jokes go. One of them would thought to say to me, "But you drink wine, though, right?" and I calmly told her "no" and she answered back "really, why not?" Then I answered, "Never been interested and it is a waste of money." Fastest answer I could come up with.
           My other co-worker asked me, "So were you like a nerd in school?" and that is when I told them about being in a small country school and my parents working at the same school. My dad as the superenident and my mom as a teacher. Then, of course, they went on to say, "That would suck" and I just stopped there. You don't need to drink anything to be happy. I love the life I am living right now. Yeah, high school was hard and I got made fun of a lot because I was the goody two shoes and they didn't like my parents but I am the person I am now because of those things. They didn't stop me and they never will.
           I might have been the nerd in my class but look where I am now. Another talk that we had, I think it was yesterday, was about hard work and you don't talk to this CofO graduate about hard work unless it is something good. Again, though, they were complaining about it. Complaining about having to work so hard for the job they wanted. They didn't want to go back to school. They wanted to find a fast program to go through or something like that. I will be honest on here what was going through my mind at that time is: "don't even talk too me about hard work because you don't know what it is and then why are you here?" "You can talk to me about hard work when you get a good job or even start your own business but until then no."
            It is sad that daycares and preschools get the low end of the people who don't care or don't want to work hard. It should be the other way around because they are our future. I have seen it everywhere I have been for the past about 7 years. I hate that! Again, hard work is what I grew up with. My family was a hard working family. We never got handed anything. If my dad had to work 2 jobs, he did even with I think 3 kids and my mom went back to college with 4 kids, almost 5 kids. I just don't want to hear people complain about working hard because what they are doing now is nothing.
           My dad always pushed us, kids, to the max. We could not relax at all. Relaxation is not in our blood. You think I'm kidding but I am not. We had to earn our way to what we wanted to do. Me not so much as the older siblings but still. Still to this day, when we are at home, my dad always has a project going on that he needs help with and then there is my mom who is so creative she can't just sit and do nothing. She is always making cards, cleaning, or cooking, or something outside.
           Between jobs, I have tried not to work or do anything for days and I just can't do it. It is not in my blood just to sit around and stare at the wall. It is not even in my blood to go the easy way. I need and like a challenge and I will get through that challenge if it is meant to be. The longest I have been without a job is 3 months and that drove me up the wall because I couldn't do anything. t think that another thing that helps me too is that I fully depend on God or at least try to all the time. Some times I doubt his plans and ways but I know that He always has the best in mind for me. All this to say that:

I am thankful that I was born in SWMO and lived in Central MO for most of my life, even though I hate to admit it. I am very thankful now for living in NWA and there is no place I rather be right now. I have all the people and things that I need right now close to me (no more then 2 hours away) and I am happy. I am thankful for what I have and I have earned it almost all by myself. Yes, there were some mistakes and ways that were unplanned in my book but in God's book they were the right ways for sure. I praise God for all of this but I will say that having the hard work in me did help a lot.