I try not to sure my personal feelings on here because I know it might cause people to worry but I am writing so people would more understand what I am going through and feeling like. I will try to keep it down to non worrying details. Don't get me wrong I appicate all the encouragement that I am getting and it does so me people care about me. I guess giving me ideas help too but when it is the same thing over and over, it gets old. When people give me the simplest things to do, it makes me mad even though I know people are just helping. If one person suggested it, don't you think I've tried it?
This is one of the confusing things I keep going back and forth on. Most of the time, I just want someone to listen to and know they listening, not someone to try and fix me. That is part of my mental health problem. I can't stick with just one thing and feeling. I will say, though, that if I do stick with a thought or feeling and it's about you, you are very lucky. There must be something very special about you. Back to the whole mental health thing, I am going to write about how I feel when people try to fix it and think it is nothing but an easy thing to fix. I will also talk about how going to a mental health Dr. Is the same thing as going to a rauglar Dr.
It is hard to pick one thing and just stick with it or at least it is for me. I have tried all of the things to calm my anxiety but can move stick with any of them. I know I have a big problem with commitment for anything too. People keep saying try this or that and I would say that I have. I just can't stick with it. The only thing, it seems, to keep a commitment to is meds but even then it is trying different meds. I want to get over it so bad but yet everything I seem to try works for a bit then stops. Sometimes it is me not wanting to go or it just seems like my body gets use to it really fast.
Going to the mental health Dr. Is nothing like going to a plain check up Dr. Or anything to do with the outside or inside of your body. People are use to going to a body Drs. Because you have to to keep well. It isn't strange because everyone does it but once you say mental health Drs. Everyone gets so worried and worked up. You might even get people talking behind your back because they don't understand what they really do for a person.
Most of the time you can see why a person needed to go to a Dr. Or when they went to one when it has to do with physical things. When it is mental health, it suripses everyone that you would really go. Why would you go to one? People would ask you. You seem just fine with me. That's the main problem with mental issues. No one knows how to see or recongize them. If you just look at me, you would think I am normal. When you really becomes friends with me and have to be around me often, you will see there is something wrong with me.
Asking for help is hard for me to start with. So all of this could be sloved a long time ago but I was so in denil of doing anything about it because I could ever have anything wrong with me. Now I am paying for it with my whole life. Litually. I had two chances to change and that change would have been easier because it would have been on my parents' insurance instead of mine. I could use that $100 dollars for something else but no because I was dumb back then.
This is one of the confusing things I keep going back and forth on. Most of the time, I just want someone to listen to and know they listening, not someone to try and fix me. That is part of my mental health problem. I can't stick with just one thing and feeling. I will say, though, that if I do stick with a thought or feeling and it's about you, you are very lucky. There must be something very special about you. Back to the whole mental health thing, I am going to write about how I feel when people try to fix it and think it is nothing but an easy thing to fix. I will also talk about how going to a mental health Dr. Is the same thing as going to a rauglar Dr.
It is hard to pick one thing and just stick with it or at least it is for me. I have tried all of the things to calm my anxiety but can move stick with any of them. I know I have a big problem with commitment for anything too. People keep saying try this or that and I would say that I have. I just can't stick with it. The only thing, it seems, to keep a commitment to is meds but even then it is trying different meds. I want to get over it so bad but yet everything I seem to try works for a bit then stops. Sometimes it is me not wanting to go or it just seems like my body gets use to it really fast.
Going to the mental health Dr. Is nothing like going to a plain check up Dr. Or anything to do with the outside or inside of your body. People are use to going to a body Drs. Because you have to to keep well. It isn't strange because everyone does it but once you say mental health Drs. Everyone gets so worried and worked up. You might even get people talking behind your back because they don't understand what they really do for a person.
Most of the time you can see why a person needed to go to a Dr. Or when they went to one when it has to do with physical things. When it is mental health, it suripses everyone that you would really go. Why would you go to one? People would ask you. You seem just fine with me. That's the main problem with mental issues. No one knows how to see or recongize them. If you just look at me, you would think I am normal. When you really becomes friends with me and have to be around me often, you will see there is something wrong with me.
Asking for help is hard for me to start with. So all of this could be sloved a long time ago but I was so in denil of doing anything about it because I could ever have anything wrong with me. Now I am paying for it with my whole life. Litually. I had two chances to change and that change would have been easier because it would have been on my parents' insurance instead of mine. I could use that $100 dollars for something else but no because I was dumb back then.
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