As I look back on my life, I regret a lot. I especially regret not really living the small town life while I was really in a small town. I could have lived it more then I did. All I could think about while I was there was how bad I wanted to get out of there. If I knew what I do now back then, I would take every chance I got to live that life more. Now living in a big city for about 8 years, I would give anything to go back to my small town.
I only went to a school that had a 100 people in it. It was elementary, middle, and high school in one big building with that many people in it. I graduated with a class of 30 people in it. That was in 2006. Yet, I could be involved in so many things because there was so few people. I never thought of it that way but it was true. I was in FFA, FTA, Cross Country, yearbook, and band. That was 5 things I was involved in all four years of high school.
You might think that is strange? Well, here is an eye opener for you then. Out of the 30 in my class, there were 3 teacher's kids including me. The two out of those 3 were also admin. kids including me. Two of the moms were elementary teachers and the other parent was a elementary /high school teacher. Then my dad was the superintendent of the school and the other person's dad was the high school principal. If that was small town enough, the high school principal was also my cross county coach and driver's ed teacher.
You could also just join FFA no matter if you had a project or not. I know I did. I tried doing my babysitting job as a project but it never went through. I will say, though, that my FFA advisor was the best one in the world and I am not being smart alike either. He was like a father or a 2nd father to most of his students. He cared for you as a person and you could tell that. We also had shop class and a greenhouse to work in. I loved the greenhouse but the shop was mostly for the guys.
The school was also on a dirt road. That is where I I would run during cross country practice. That is the only track we had besides the big field beside the school too, which was where our trail for the meet was every year when we hosted it. I also lived across a dirt road so I would even practice during the summers by running on that road too. The school was literally out in the middle of nowhere between two very small towns. Our best sport was basketball because we had no football. That is the only main sport we didn't have and we didn't have any extra because we couldn't afford them. We just had volleyball, baseball, softball, and cross country along with basketball. That right there tells you that our band was just a marching band.
Now explaining all of this you would see why I wanted to be a part of something. Since I left that small town life, I have been searching for a better and adventurous life. I thought I wanted that kind of life but boy, was I wrong. It was fun for maybe 3 or 4 years but since then God has brought me back to who I really am at heart. It was like I was trying to run away from myself because of everything that happened in my small town to me. There is more personal stuff that happened but I can't share the down parts on this blog. It wasn't bad just typical high school teasing and things like that. I had fun on the mission trips to Guatemala. I got to learn a lot more about the big company world. Also, got to learn what the "real" world was really like. None of those really fit me like I thought they would. I took my own way and thought it could be better but actually it was quite lonely in so many more ways then one. When you get in a big city and everyone is from different places you can't get close enough to them or at least I can't because I know they are more then likely going to move in so many years.
Some of their jobs require them to move after a certain amount because of the letting go the big companies do more often not. Most of the people are also international so they are only here to help with a project and then move back to their home county. Not only was I a small town girl but I spent a few years of my life out in the country. The first 4 years of my life. The last couple of years I have realized that I like the quite and slow pace better. I really miss it. I loved having people I could count on and know. You just felt like you were apart of something even if they knew everything. It is also just prettier out in the country. I do get closer to God because I see more of His Creation out there. In the city, all you see is man made buildings. Small towns are just so much more friendlier and laid-back. Something that I've always been. They are also very deep and make you very deep when you live in them.
There is no other words to explain it. You would just have to live in it to experience it. That's the best way to say all this in simple terms. I wouldn't want it any other way. The city isn't for me now or in the future but for now I am dealing with it. This is just a start of a story that I want to continue with later on. Watch for more parts of it to come on this blog because some other parts of my small town life might be shared with other parts on my life. You can never write something without having the small town show through you or at least I can't.
I only went to a school that had a 100 people in it. It was elementary, middle, and high school in one big building with that many people in it. I graduated with a class of 30 people in it. That was in 2006. Yet, I could be involved in so many things because there was so few people. I never thought of it that way but it was true. I was in FFA, FTA, Cross Country, yearbook, and band. That was 5 things I was involved in all four years of high school.
You might think that is strange? Well, here is an eye opener for you then. Out of the 30 in my class, there were 3 teacher's kids including me. The two out of those 3 were also admin. kids including me. Two of the moms were elementary teachers and the other parent was a elementary /high school teacher. Then my dad was the superintendent of the school and the other person's dad was the high school principal. If that was small town enough, the high school principal was also my cross county coach and driver's ed teacher.
You could also just join FFA no matter if you had a project or not. I know I did. I tried doing my babysitting job as a project but it never went through. I will say, though, that my FFA advisor was the best one in the world and I am not being smart alike either. He was like a father or a 2nd father to most of his students. He cared for you as a person and you could tell that. We also had shop class and a greenhouse to work in. I loved the greenhouse but the shop was mostly for the guys.
The school was also on a dirt road. That is where I I would run during cross country practice. That is the only track we had besides the big field beside the school too, which was where our trail for the meet was every year when we hosted it. I also lived across a dirt road so I would even practice during the summers by running on that road too. The school was literally out in the middle of nowhere between two very small towns. Our best sport was basketball because we had no football. That is the only main sport we didn't have and we didn't have any extra because we couldn't afford them. We just had volleyball, baseball, softball, and cross country along with basketball. That right there tells you that our band was just a marching band.
Now explaining all of this you would see why I wanted to be a part of something. Since I left that small town life, I have been searching for a better and adventurous life. I thought I wanted that kind of life but boy, was I wrong. It was fun for maybe 3 or 4 years but since then God has brought me back to who I really am at heart. It was like I was trying to run away from myself because of everything that happened in my small town to me. There is more personal stuff that happened but I can't share the down parts on this blog. It wasn't bad just typical high school teasing and things like that. I had fun on the mission trips to Guatemala. I got to learn a lot more about the big company world. Also, got to learn what the "real" world was really like. None of those really fit me like I thought they would. I took my own way and thought it could be better but actually it was quite lonely in so many more ways then one. When you get in a big city and everyone is from different places you can't get close enough to them or at least I can't because I know they are more then likely going to move in so many years.
Some of their jobs require them to move after a certain amount because of the letting go the big companies do more often not. Most of the people are also international so they are only here to help with a project and then move back to their home county. Not only was I a small town girl but I spent a few years of my life out in the country. The first 4 years of my life. The last couple of years I have realized that I like the quite and slow pace better. I really miss it. I loved having people I could count on and know. You just felt like you were apart of something even if they knew everything. It is also just prettier out in the country. I do get closer to God because I see more of His Creation out there. In the city, all you see is man made buildings. Small towns are just so much more friendlier and laid-back. Something that I've always been. They are also very deep and make you very deep when you live in them.
There is no other words to explain it. You would just have to live in it to experience it. That's the best way to say all this in simple terms. I wouldn't want it any other way. The city isn't for me now or in the future but for now I am dealing with it. This is just a start of a story that I want to continue with later on. Watch for more parts of it to come on this blog because some other parts of my small town life might be shared with other parts on my life. You can never write something without having the small town show through you or at least I can't.
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