Going to Two Churches

             My first reaction when I started going to two churches was that I had to pick just one by comparing them. I was going to write an entry called "Comparing Churches" but then I came to realize something. God must want me to go to both churches for a little while because of what is being taught. I have been going to the two churches for about a month or a little more and I am getting a lot out of both of them. Though it does get really busy after awhile, I am trying to hang in there until I feel like letting go of my old church. I will admit last Sunday I almost cried for the first time at a church for awhile but that week before was just a really hard week for me. Could have been a little bit of both.
             I will say my Saturday night church really hits the personal for me and it seems like it is what I need at that moment in time. I was going to stop going to my Saturday night church but the sermons they are teaching now are so good. I might stop going when the finish these sermons. The other church, though, is giving me, I think, the bigger picture of what my life could be or needs to be. It is giving me the goals that I need to reach for and be happy with. It is giving me a sight of who I can be in that church and who I was in the past but somewhere along the way I lost that someone.
            I was also thinking why is God having me go to these two churches, don't I have anything better to do with my life and sadly the answer is, "no". I think I am also at a very special part of my life where I need that extra teaching and encouragement in God. I mean I am 30 and still single. Not anywhere near where I thought I would be while I was in college or before that. It is also good to know that you have a big church where you can feel alone and just focus on God by yourself and friends are there that are closer to your age. Yet you have this other church that is smaller and you get to meet some new people because it is smaller and you are involved in the little things going on in that church.
            I know I will have to give up one in the near future because of some of the other things that I am planning on doing and I need time for those things but for now it is good. To be honest, I think going to those two different churches does help me get through the week too since everything there is new too. I know this is a strange way to look at things right now but that is how I am going to do it. God is gently changing me over to a new church because He knows that I don't like sudden change but yet at the same time He is teaching me and showing me that there might be a purpose of going to the other church through the my old church. If that makes any sense at all.
             I will say too that my new church is growing bigger everyday and there are things that I could do/start there or be more involved there where as, my old church is just too big for me in all areas. I think it is still strange going to two churches at the same time but I know I will look on this and laugh. I will say while looking for a church this is the longest I have been going to a new one since I have moved here, which is a good thing. Other times I would try different churches out and I would go one or two Sundays and then stop going. I just feel like God wants me at this new church but until I get really involved or use to it, I won't stop going to the big one.
              There are some days and points in days that I am thinking that God is trying to keep me from saying something I will regret to others later on in my life. There is that hope of knowing that it will happen that the exit will come but until then I just have to wait and worship with my life like I have been and keep hoping and believing and trusting in God for the impossible to happen. If you knew what I call the "impossible" some of you would think it is funny. I guess in a way going to these two churches at the same time is teaching me something about life and how to live it. They are just making me stronger together. I just hope it shows on my outward appearances as well as my inside too.