A Caring Prayer

Dear Daddy,

         I am having a hard time I will admit. With all my heart, I want to do what is right and not be selfish towards other people. I want my friends to be happy in life too. Their own life and if that doesn't involve me then I should be fine with it. It has been more then a month and I just realized it this week. I still wanna be but is it really worth my time? I know I prayed earlier for a clean heart this month and I want that to continue that prayer. Not sure what that looks like for me or other people yet and if they even be in my life once all clean. Even to move on, everyone needs to be cleaned of the past. Daddy, You know how hard that is for me to say and You are the Only one that knows it hurts me. Right now, though, I am looking every way and to every path because I don't know what to do. On the outside, I am always the strong girl even though this whole thing. I've just been so busy that I hide them lately. When I calm down enough, will I really be okay with things? Will I understand why and why me and why now?


In Christ's name,

Amen