Staying in the States

      Here is the entery that I have promised in my last two enteries about staying where I am for now. Staying in AR was never in my dreams. I will admit when I was in high school even in college until my Sr. year. I thought AR never. I'll never live in that state or the city where Wal-Mart is based. With all the rumors that go around about AR. :) That hasn't been my experience at all. I love the state and might settle here. I mean I am in my 3rd year living in AR and I never thought I would last that long. Let's see if I can do 5 years. I was at my parents' home this past weekend and thinking about things and looking up different church camps that I could do this summer instead of going on a mission trip and my FAVORITE TV show got me thinking and has been encouraging me a lot. My job also going me thinking "I'm needed here."
         The things I have wrote about before this entery with my children really has gotten to me. I don't know if it God's way for me to see I belong here and that my traveling time might be up at least for a little bit. I see a need around me and I want to help it out. I have loved each of those little moments with my children I have now. I know there needs to be more foster homes around here because there are so many children without homes. It might be hard but it would be really rewarding. I never really had a place to call home. Yeah, I call SW MO my home and where I was raised but I didn't live there all my life. I never really had good friends that I still talk to today from the places I lived. The true first friends I have are my college friends. I wonder if it is time for me to really settle down find those friends that I have things in common with and maybe start something like my own business.
           I'm the kind of girl that if I see a need I go after it and see if I can help and this foster home thing has my name written all over it single or with a husband who knows but right now I'm where I need to be and I love it. I couldn't have it any other way. My family lives close by now and I can get away from the city if I need to out in the beautiful country near by or a National Park. I know more people too now whether they are people who work at Wal-Mart to people at church. I know that there is a real world out there and it needs help. It is a world of sin like the Bible says and God's people are the missionaries wherever God has set them down at.
            I will be seen through here but I got to thinking about when I started to travel and don't get me wrong I love to travel and it has been a dream of mine for years. I been to 4 different countries and been blessed to go to one country twice in a row. I started to travel when my grandpa and FFA advisor past away and I kind of started to wonder if that was not trying to get away from that. Trying to forget everything that happened there. I don't remember once not going somewhere whether another state or country after my advisor passed away. My FFA advisor would want me to settle and start something that makes a difference so would my grandpa, grandma, and granddad. They knew how much I love children and I have a plan that can help me write my dream come true and make it happen. I don't know why really but it did just hit me this week like that. Before that summer of my advisor passing, I worked at a summer church camp and it was hard to work but that was worth it too. I wonder what that would be like again. It would be neat to get involved in a ministry near by and help that grow in some way but right now that ministry is doing great on its own.
            I always would like to work at the camp that I grew up going to in MO so that might be a possiblity this summer or there is another one that looks like fun if they need my help but it is only for a week in the summer so I don't know about that one. Giving back to the children at the camp I use to go to growing up would be so much fun and a neat feeling and thing to see. See how it is growing because I haven't been there in years. That's my plan for the summer right now and for my life but who knows we serve a God that can change things in a second so we'll see what He does with my life because it is His, not mine.