What is a Home?

      God really worked on my first day back from my Christmas break. He got me in gear right from the start. I was so lost and confused because of children leaving and different people working but He got me where He need to be even before I went into work this morning without me knowing it. These are the verses that I wrote down before work and the ones above them if you look them up. It talks about how people are God's house and we should the good architect or carpenter. Hopefully, I was the Architect today. Here are the verses:
                      " Or, to put it another way, you are God’s house. Using the gift God gave me as a good architect, I designed blueprints; Apollos is putting up the walls. Let each carpenter who comes on the job take care to build on the foundation! Remember, there is only one foundation, the one already laid: Jesus Christ. Take particular care in picking out your building materials. Eventually there is going to be an inspection. If you use cheap or inferior materials, you’ll be found out. The inspection will be thorough and rigorous. You won’t get by with a thing. If your work passes inspection, fine; if it doesn’t, your part of the building will be torn out and started over. But you won’t be torn out; you’ll survive—but just barely."- 1st Cor. 3:9-15
      Yeah, after you read that what do you think? You think nothing until you are with a bunch of children after Christmas and ringing in the New Year in some place other then their own home. You think nothing of it until all of them are drawing pictures of houses or having you drawing pictures of houses for them in all shape and sizes to 2 windows to 5 windows and 2 doors. With those houses, they are drawing people too on the other side of the paper. What now? I felt like God was telling me something and He probably was. I wonder what was going through each of those childrens' minds. Yeah, it was a chain reaction one wanted a house and so did the rest of them but still you wonder. They want to be home instead of at another place with strangers and new things things that are not their own. 
        Home is not where you live but where your heart truly is. It is where the people you love and care about you are. People might take care of you other places but you might not love or care for them. You might be there just because you have to. Some of these children never get to go back to their true home. 
        If that wasn't bad enough to show me that I shouldn't have left, I had a convo. with one of my little girls but really it was God have a convo. with her and me at the same time. Here is the convo. I had with the little girl:

         Me: Why are you upset/sad?
         Little Girl: Because I miss my mommy and daddy.
         Me: Is there something else bothering you?
         Little Girl: The dark.
         Me: Why:
         Little Girl: Because I'm scared of the dark.
  Then we went into this convo. some parts I can't share. 

          Little Girl: They were crying when I left and so was I.
          Me: Don't ever let someone make you feel like it's your fault. You are 
          a sweet little girl. It's not your felt that you left.
          Little Girl: My brother was crying too.
          Me: You are sweet and don't you forget it. You can share your feelings 
          but don't feel like it is your fault. They just made some bad choices. You
          are sweet and beautiful no matter what and don't you ever forget that. 

   God was talking to me through that convo. too has I thought about it on the way home. I've been through a lot these past couple of months and year you could say. It comes and it goes depending on situations. 

          Me: I'm not beautiful enough, smart enough, or loud enough for them.
          They just say things so they think I won't get mad at them. 
          God: You are beautiful in My Eyes. 
          Me: You left me alone when everything happened.
          God: I didn't I died for you so you could live for me.
          Me: Where are you now when I'm so confused and scared about things?
          God: I'm right here beside you leading you every step of the way. I'm
          with the children, through family and friends, and in My Creation. Just 
          listen and trust me. 
          Me: It is hard.
          God: Trust Me and I will Lead you where I want you! 
          Me (saying this right now): I'll try. 
          God: Don't try! Do! Let Go and let Me have control this next year!
          Me:________________________(thinking a lot about things)

     Again, can't share all of it even with me with out sharing certain situations but you get the idea on both of the convos. and see the connection, right? Sorry there are two different sizes of text on this page.