Comfort that They Need

      You don't realize how blessed and nice it is to be with family after you have spent it with people and children who don't have a family to spend the hoildays with. I'm sure there will be more about after today on this same topic but I just had to share what happened yesterday. I got 3 presents and for me that is a lot and keeps me busy. Those presents aren't material things but children who need to be loved on. I had 3 situtations that I had to comfort children yesterday and some just broke my heart.
         The first one wasn't too bad. It was just one of my little boys coming back from a visit and he needed encouragement to go play with the children once he got back. He was "away" for a second but he got over it really fast. The other one was my normal little girl that I talk to and comfort a lot lately. It seems she likes to be by herself more and more. I had to comfort her after something that she got to do and then at bedtime when she would not go to bed for the other teacher. She threw one of the biggest fits that I've seen yet from her but when I was rocking her she was fine and calmed down. That same girl told one of the other teachers that someone was in Heaven and that is why she was upset but she didn't say who. I'm so mad at myself because this is a replay of the little girl before her and I should have known how to handle it. This girl is more emtional and reserved then the last one I think. What is strange though is that she is sleeping in the same bed as the girl before her with the same problem.
         You get all these little problems before the holidays because parents want to see their children or talk to them and wish them a merry Christmas but they don't realize how hard it is on the children. There is a lot of emations going on throughout the place and even for me because how I wish I could take them home tommrow and give them each a present even though they will get a lot there tommrow. It is the family setting that means the most to me and it should to everyone too.
          Then my other present was one of the other little girls woke up from her sleep crying. I went into the bedroom to see what was the matter and she said to me "I want you" and gave me a hug. We talked a little while about what scared her in her dreams to tinkerbell because that is what made her happy. Sometimes though I wonder what goes on in their minds because this little girl I'm scared that she has watch too many scary movies and video games about killing and zombies and such. This little girl reminded me of another little girl that I had and they were in the same bed too. She reminded me of her because we started to talk about the dargonflies on the wall and the other little girl would do that when she was scared too to get her mind off of things.
             I'm starting to see another pattern for them and for me. I might be the shy one in the bunch, in the whole building, but I'm the most caring and understanding one. I am also shy because I'm the most determined one too and you can't talk much when you have your mind set to something. I'm can be the most sassy one when you get to know me and I open up a lot but it takes a lot of trust for me to get there with some, most people. To be honest, I wouldn't want to spend the day before Christmas Eve or Christmas Eve any other way.
              I keep thinking about my grandma and grandad that passed away. We would spend Christmas Eve at their house every year but now I'm spending it with children who needs it spent with and I know that would mean a lot to the both of them espically grandma. Doing what I love and working hard at it. I guess you can say I grew up in a family that hard work was the only way, well not really, but one of the ways to get what you want and here I am. It is by no means an easy job but I love it too death.