A Little "Side" Mission Trip

       Who knew that you could have a mission trip in your home state at your own job in a big snow storm? AR friends are going to kill me for saying this but I want this all winter. LOL! :) They know where I work though so they understand why. I would have to be able to go outside with the children though most of the time. :) That is where I have been the past 2 days and it has opened up my eyes so much. God knew what He was doing when He put everything in order for good. I had a hard week last week but this week just seems so much better and yet I started it off at work after having a good talk with a family member.
          It seems like I just needed to get a way from my apartment and people around me like sorry to say it but friends for awhile and have no way of talking for long for awhile. You don't know how hard something hits you until it hits you hard and then you are like duh! First off, I think my apartment is too small and has a lot of things in it. Second off, I think I do need to live with a friend sometime soon like by next August.
           After staying 3 days and 2 nights at my job, I feel like they are a family to me and that they do care about the children there or at least most of them. I loved to see how we are came together and worked as a team by one showing up when one couldn't get out because of the snow. How people were so willing to stay a week overnights or more to take shifts where need be. I got to know some people that I never saw because I worked or stayed with them and got to know the people I knew already better. It just seemed like a caring place. It reminds me of the daycare at my college and it is so good to be back at a place like that then I was almost a year ago from now. I wouldn't trade this job for anything else unless it was to start one like my own.
            To tell you all what I'm learning, I need to tell you the start of the story which was last week. A friend of mine was honest to me and told me what they needed to tell me but in a way it was hard for me to take in. I understood it and respected them for it but it was still hard in a way. I thought about it all week until I got to talk to a family member of mine and they helped me understand things a little better. They helped me understand that boundaries are more and have to do more then just with what we think they do (dating/guys). Boundaries have to do with dreams, jobs, friends, and even family. If you don't have the set amount of time to spend with them or the ability to say no when they ask you of something then your life is going to be crazy.
               I had that talk this past Sunday and after that I have spent the last 3 days at my job and I think that talk helped me see things a little clearer now. I heard the past two days at my job how people had to go home because of their families/husband/boyfriend and that is great and I don't think anything of it expect this. People think I might be strange because I work with the children I do and I love it and don't care to spend the night. I felt strange last night spending the night because everyone was going home or almost everyone and the roads were fine but I had to work in the morning so I stayed.
              I truly believe God gave these past 2 days to see that I don't need all the stuff I have to make me happy and I knew that from before mission trips. I think the main thing He was showing me the week before and this week was I don't need a guy in my life right now or a family because He has better things for me. If I had a family or boyfriend I wouldn't be able to stay over night at my work or go on these amazing mission trips. I might not even be able to open my own shelter or orphanage for children unless my husband really loves children like I do. I mean I can see myself opening one by myself if I have to having 12 children and just me in one big house. When I enjoy it, I have the energy to do it and nothing to keep me from it.
               Yes, I may be that  strange one spending the night somewhere else when I don't have to really but scared to drive in the snow and don't want to get up so early. I do the life I do because I don't have a boyfriend/husband or children to go home to. This is and will be my life for however long The Lord wants it to be. It will never wear out on me. To people who really know me, this shouldn't be surprising. I love my life right now and there is no other way I would have it now! Maybe later but not right now. I can't complain at all and I won't! :)