Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

What My March was like:        Word of the month: Curiosity            February wins: Started a Bible Study at my new church. It was an online one.  February hiccups: Prayed less then I would have like to. What do I want to start?: To journal at least 2 times a month.  My Moods: Amazed:  2 times Stressed: 3 times Calm: 13 times  Annoyed: 6 times Happy: 12 times Helpless: 3 times My Habits: Filling out my journal: 21 times  Saying prayers: 13 times Eat healthy meals: 13 times Talk a walk: 3 times Go to bed at 11:00: 8 times Question Log (questions I had throughout the month): -Will my dad be okay? -How will headstart run after masks are done with? -Why after all he has been through? -What will the world be like after masks? -Why can't we just love people? -When is my check coming? -How do you cure seizures? -Will there ever be a cure for Altimezier's? -How much will my bears be in the future? -Will there ever be a...

           Easter have been different for the past two years. Last year it was because of COVID and this year we are trying to get back to "normal" which is strange now too. For me, that's not the only reason it is strange for me. A lot has happened over this Easter weekend. A lot that shows new life like Spring and Easter should show.            First, Dad went into the hospital and had no idea why or what was wrong. He stayed there for about 4 days. The drs. did all these tests but we still had no answers. Finally, his regular Dr. came in and said we are going to figure this out. They went ahead with the biopsy and we still don't know. That is where I worried and waited.             Second, I got my last COVID shot on Thursday. Now I can be free in life and start anew that way. It is almost Iike I was born again in a strange way. It was like that shot really had to go through my body to make...

            Living in two worlds in one week is crazy. I thought I would take a break from my anxiety meds since I wasn't really stress this week but I was wrong. I cried for the first time last night in a long time. It is like I am living in two worlds. I wish I could just live in one. I wish I could be normal and not get so worked up about things even for a week would be nice. I also noticed that the past two nights I couldn't sleep because my mind wouldn't turn off.                 That's when I started thinking about things happening I guess and I just started to cry. Yes, its good to cry every once in awhile especially when meds are holding you back but it is still strange. You cry and you don't know why. You are all worked up and you don't know why. I guess what's going on in today's world is really upsetting. Maybe I am happy that I found a way to work through this tough time in history. Yes, I am hearing ...

Summary of my February  Word: Endearment  How many times did I feel: Happy: 8 times Stress: 6 times  Sad: 3 times  Sleepy: 4 times Loved: 1 time Calm: 12 times How many times did I: Go to bed at 11:00: 13 times Talk a walk: 0 times Said my prayers: 7 times Wrote in my journal: 17 times  What brought me warmth, love, or joy: -God created me for me -Family talking about the Chiefs -my boyfriend -my cat Jake -ice day on my 1st work anniversary  Self-Care Bingo Exercise: -Spent time with family -made a cup of tea -took 5 deep breath -spent time outside -started a new TV show -listened to music -called up an old friend -light candles -made soup -gave myself a mani What events happened and when: -on the 10th- was an ice day and stayed home from work -on the 11th: was an ice day and home from work -on the 12th: snowed all day. Went to pick up a few things and selves were empty -on the 14th-snow all day -on the 15th: 4 inches of snow, PD day at home, lights went ou...

 The God of Details God is nor just an Almighty God. He is a personal God too. He cares about The big and little things. He cares  About everything.  God is the God of details too. Not Just the big things. Every detail is Not forgotten. He does care about Creation. He cares about each person  Too. He cared enough to name flowers. Every animal. God cared enough To put us with the right people. He Gave each of us different fingerprints. Every detail is important to God. You Are important to God. When you need To know how important you are,  Remember the God of Details. The Almighty God cares for you and Everything around you. You might Think something is wrong with you, But guess what?! Not a detail is wrong With you. You are prefect! You are God's Child! Written by: Tiffney Wilson Written on: Feb. 22, 2021

         2020 was an usual year for most of us. So unsual that we are trying to look for and post the good things that happened in 2020, which is good because we need to realize that God was in everything at all times. I am going to name my by month if I can. Pick something out good from each month. Maybe that would help me see more of how blessed I was in 2020. January- Got a new job but had the confidence to quit it too. Was really sick at the start of the month but got over it. Really bad cough.  February-Started a new job and it was a big job. Had 20 kids and some of them weren't the easiest but I hung on. Got one of the kids to come half day.  March-Was finally getting the hang of the job but then had to stay home even after Spring Break. April-Don't remember much from April. Think it was just getting use to the new normal. Couldn't have Easter with all the family.  May-Got to celebrate my boyfriend's 40th birthday. I kind of made a big deal ...

         2020 was a hard year for most of us. It was the year of the COVID sickness. It was the year of staying home. It was the year of doing everything virtual. It was also the year of staying away from people and wearing masks. Yet I am trying to look at how I bloomed during this hard year and I know of some of the ways that I have. This year might have been hard but I have bloomed so much at the same time during this year and got to do things I would never have gotten to do. I am looking how I bloomed because "bloom" was my word of the year this year. It is strange because we all had to bloom in a lot of different ways. Strange how God works sometimes, huh?             Here are some of the things that come right to mind when I think of blooming in 2020: -Got a new job. - I made closer friends at work. - I connected with some of the kids that I thought    I wouldn't at the start of the year. -Been through 3 directors at...